Grandpa's Rank

@uk

Hi

dude

i

my mom wants me back.

she is trying to force me to live with her

telling my dad she has a plan

(to put me in a school for kids with "bad behavior"

idk what to do

im going to lose my case manger, im going to love my CLS worker, my med doctor.

my mom isnt going to take me to apointlemtns. i doubt ill get my meds

shell put me back at my worst.

and shes tryign to force me to

She shouldn't do that

she dosent care

she doset even want me

she js dosent wanna pay child support.

Honestly I

I don't know what to do

uk every time im there i end up wanting to hurt myself or worse.

idk what to do either.

Like as punsihment when i lived with her she made me bag up everything in my room and lock it away

excpet a matress and blankets on the floor.

and i was in the hosptial and she got rid of my room to my brother

she dosent ever buy food unless were without for like 3-5 days

shes always at work

or drunk.

or fucking another guy.

shes planning to work an hour away

so if somethign happens, i could be fucking dying, and she would hit me with "im at work i cant"

she dosent gaf ab otu any of her kids

Would calling police do anything?

for my brother first football game she was working, shes never been to any of my concertd, never visted me in the mental hospital

and speaking of that, the first time my dad hurt me

That's worse

i fucking called her

and she cocky asf told me it was my fault

and shes not getting me

so i cant even o yo my fucking mom.

and now im being forced to live with her

she dosnet listen to anything i say

she talks shit about me

things i cant control too

and she says mutiple times she gave up on me

Is hiding an option?

wdym?

Idk

if i go ill prolly js stay in my room and refuse to do anyhting

like school chores

any of that

and its obvious my mental health will drop.

ffs she wants me in public schools.

i told my dad like the genuine reasons

ill lose all my mental health stuff, she wont keep up with meds or appointments

and he said he agrees but they have equal say

I mean like other friends

yeah

kind of

i told my gf, ans she said shes sorry and here for me

i told sara , and she js said shes sorry and she hopes i dont go

and i told one other guy, and he said sience ill be 16 i can speak in court if it goes there

but thats all i got

no one will berlive me because im a "troubled teen"

a cop told me this too, saying seince i dont behave, and have mental issues, ill ignored.

You need someone to back you up

Anyone irl?

im not in public schools and cant talk to anyone.

i stopped going to church and they were all i had irl

atleast my dad dosent want me to leave

so yk

I don't know

What to do

I'm so sorry

its okay

i dont expect you to know everything

i js wanted to talk about it.

but tbh im almost at my anger breaking point

like the next man that treats me like an object, or tries to control me, ill fucking crash.

or if anyone else tried to control me and tame me

ill fucking raise hell

so if i reach this point ill fight in court and raise hell if i dont win.

I support this

im so fucking sick of people, esp men treating me like i should sit down and shut up.

im abt to get rid of every fucking man whos ever treated me like this

and ive been seeing moths and spiders so heacte is fucking calling me

im srsly sick of being forced to shut the fuck up.

im not going to shut the fuck up

if one more person pushes me everyone is getting it, if they fucking did me wrong, or started shit, made me feel like shit, or anything

everyone who did is fucking done for.

i need to calm down. im so close to breaking omg

but serously, im done shutting the fuck up.

I littearly tell people to speak up, and encrouge to not stand down and to not be forced into a image people can handle

why the fuck cant i follow it.

i littearly used to pretend to be homphobic around people who were because i was scared to be judged.

yeah im done im saying smthin.

im getting off this post, im making one rq

Okay