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I promised myself dead 3 years ago on June 16th. 2:30am by cutting my throat. It is now March third 2026. I have broken a promise, for once. Breaking this promise feels good. I almost commited to the bit, therapy didn't help. Not a bit. But what I was thinking of were my animals. my friends and family. Knowing my mom would blame herself. my dad would start being more aggressive. my sister might have gone depressed. A… Read more

i'm tired of everything honestly. nothing fazes me anymore. everything seems fucking dull. life seems more like a chore that i am done doing. I want to fucking die. but I also don't. I have shit to live for, yet the more shit happens. i get pissed off, I lash out on people. I'm scared. I'm scared of saying something wrong and ruining everything. I'm starting to break. I can't take this anymore. I know I have SO many … Read more

I'm thinking about killing myself. No beacause I want to die, not because my life is "horrible." but beacause it would just be easier. I've hurt everyone I've crossed at least once. My dad wouldn't have to yell anymore. My therapist and friends wouldn't worry. My war would be over. I wouldn't hurt anyone else. There would be peace with my leaving. Maybe it would hurt people, but maybe it's give them time to stop worrying, to heal. It's not like "I'm going to do it," and it's not me having a mental breakdown I feel calm I just feel Life would be easier without me. I fear I already know the answers I'm going to get to this. But i do truly believe, it would be easier without me.

I just unintentionally let another man use me last night ✌ Like I thought he was really cool, and we were asking for stuff (ifykyk), but i dindt show him anything, but I did do something ona call with him, I kept telling myself "Do this, and he will stay" And as soon as he got it, the next morning, no texts, blocked. He was complimenting me and shit, and being nice, and I thought if I gave him what he wanted, he would be more interested and want to like have a genuine. Yay. Fucking yay.

2026. The year that will be my best. I will be honest with how I feel to myself and to those who matter in my life. I will not starve myself. I will not cut myself. I will not overdose. I will not put myself into that fucked up reality state. I will not smoke weed. I will not drink alcohol. I will not let a man use me. I will try in this relationship. it might sound really fucking stupid, but this year will change my life. I will get better. I will try. I will succeed in school. I will write my books. This year WILL be diffrent.

Maybe im not doing as good as i thought? Maybe i am enough i wonder if I am , wide at night can't sleep been few days? Im in need of something I dont know what it is ? Maybe its money or maybe food or communication with close ones? Maybe i am enough to them ? Maybe im not? Wether I cry for no reason or cry for a reason it feels the same? Wether I want to get held just close ? Why am I ranting?I dont even know? Are y… Read more

Ive decied that im done. Im done letting men walk all over me, and use me. im done letting poeple just treat me like this. ive deiced that, im going to take my time with this, and not try to find someone, but be happy with myself. then maybe ill find a person who can treat me right and im done not being picky. i want to find seomoen who be there when my parents die, who will be there when i have my children, someone who can stay with me and walk me through life. im not going to settle for anything less. im done.

some songs just give me anxiety, some things just do, some people. Some popele are bad for me, im bad for some. I do fucked up things, i cant take back. My dad is right. no matter what poeple think, its true. im manulative, im controlling, im obessive, attention seeking. some people see it, others dont. everythgin i do has a reason, weather its a defecne, or not. ill stilll be bad for some pople. im thanfull thes… Read more

I've got no balance in this life I can't let go of what I like Somebody told me in a dream That I look weaker when I cry My mother used to tell me things I know I wasn't supposed to know What's that got to do with me? How the fuck do I let go? Pitfalls from God without a rope Colored chalk around my throat How the fuck do I let go? She says, "Don't ya love me?" (And if not, then why?) She reminds me of mom (okay, alr… Read more

Extremely depressing poem I wrote last year when I tried to kill myself

They were an inch wide and a centimeter deep But I don’t remember the length As I passed out in fear I remember staying pure Not being afraid of what I could do But I broke that years ago Last year, they used to be a millimeter wide and a nanometer deep An inch long I cried yet it wasn’t enough for me I remember being hot The wool sweater w… Read more

This is going to be a mouthful, but I suggest you read it all. Posting as anonymous, but yeah, it's Amy. A lot wrong has happened on this site, like a LOT. And for me, this involved the insults & constant wars & whatnot. After it was all over, I think I started building myself off my hatred of you all. I started becoming my hatred ina way. Not a day went by that I didn't remember the hurt I felt. Also, somewhere alon… Read more

I used to take a hundred photographs Just to send the perfect one I felt a hundred butterflies Every time your name came up Three more years than you deserved Nervous when you never were Just one of like a hundred girls You'll never know how much it hurt When I saw her photograph next to mine She had cocoa hair laying by your side You said she's a friend for the hundredth time But I saw your face and your face don't … Read more

GUYS I DID NOT KILL MYSELF. I have just been taking a break and I low key got grounded and got everything taken away. I’m still alive and I’ll try and come on as much as I can but it’s not gonna be a lot.