Late Night Reflections on Life and Love

Maybe im not doing as good as i thought? Maybe i am enough i wonder if I am , wide at night can't sleep been few days? Im in need of something I dont know what it is ? Maybe its money or maybe food or communication with close ones? Maybe i am enough to them ? Maybe im not? Wether I cry for no reason or cry for a reason it feels the same? Wether I want to get held just close ? Why am I ranting?I dont even know? Are you okay? I am not wanting too sleep or be awake im just here? Wether same based nightmares or time skip sleeps isn't enough? What else will? My hunger? My schooling? I pressed myself so hard to pass with shit I dont even know or have any concept of and im passing? I still get talked down too about it when im trying? Why try? I dont know, one thing I do know is I want her rn but I told her im asleep cuz I didnt wanna bug her since she's asleep? Maybe its my music feeling hurting me? Is that possible? Why is it i look in her eyes and see something I've never seen ? She's like my number one supporter. She's so beautiful I dont think I can handle a breakup. Nothings wrong with our relationship. Im just overthinking?yeah im overthinking. She's so pretty she's my pretty girl , she says im hers and she's mine so much more value than money.