Unintentional Betrayal After an Intimate Interaction

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sigh

im sorry cosmo..

this exact thing happened not long ago

charlie

you need to learn to stop doing these things

you

have

failed

to

and it hurts me because i hate to see you hurt but also i hate that everything i tell you just don’t seem to matter

keep

your

goddamned

promise

to

yourself

please for the sake of your safety stop ts

i’ve walked you through this exact thing before and it just doesn’t seem like it even matters or that me giving you my time has done anything

charlie we're on the verge of losing hope on you. you need to get your act together. Not soon. Not later. Now

this isn't healthy for you to continue ts

i’m not losing hope on her, i js don’t believe what i say has any value or impact

yeah

i've known charlie for a while n helped her with ts over and over

This isn’t healthy for her at all to be doing and me aswell

mhm

She keeps doing this stuff then thinking she’s the problem when she really isnt

well

its not her fault that men are shitty

but she needs to stop trusting them

and talking to them

and dating them

and giving them second chances

cus its been a pattern for at least the 2 years ive known her

and it hurts to watch

and it hurts that nothing i ever say is worth listening to

I’ve known her for about almost 3 years and she’s been being munpulated *srry can’t spell* by these crappy men and giving them second chances and she’s been hurt nurmous times and it breaks my heart and soul to watch

yes ik shes been manipulated

yep

we've also accurately pointed out the manipulation every time

and we're never taken seriously

And it’s like she’s my sister that I never got a chance to have so it hurts so much

yup

I have too but she always forgives them and thinks she’s the problem

mhm

but honestly thats kinda what happens when you trust a guy you've known for a few days over people who you've known for several years

i agree

and most guys on the internet are wayyyy worse

she calls me her "father" but only because i actually care about her deeply

im sadly one of the only guys that doesn't want to use her

and that pains me

her own actual dad abuses her

she's gone through too much stuff that someone her own age should ever go through

I know, shes called me crying because of how badly she’s hurt

ive gotten on calls where she cries

And it pains me that her own father, the person she’s supposed to be able to trust is the one hurting her most

yeah

I just want to be able to help her get out but idk how.

sorry for caring.

we love you nonetheless

no thtat was rude mal im sorry

charlie

we're gonna care about you always

im glad you guys care

mk

and i do listen to what you say but i also try to have faith in everyone..

I agree

i understand

that is important

but i have my faith in you too

you need to understand that someone investments are unhealthy

but i've invested in you because ik you can succeed

i dont know why i do what i do.

it's human to want to trust people

but there are people who take advantage of that

it takes a long time to really learn that

took me a while too

yeah but i dont know i keep doing it.

its addiction

...

the human soul seeks connection

addiction is the opposite of connection

addiction hurts

connections heal

i dont wanna upset your guys though

You may seek connections through addictions but those connections are there

whether you upset us or not is not what we care about

i care though

that's okay

that's normal

that's human

but it takes a lot to really teach yourself that you also need to care about yourself

but i dont wanna make you guys upset or mad

like i do these things knowing its wrong

and just

i keep doing them

i cant stop

because

its like the only time people want me

i understand that

trust me i absolutely do

but you need to realize they dont want you

they want attention and sexual gratification

i do realize that but still for a second i have people calling me pretty and who fucking want me for atleast something

you have other people who want you.

there are people here who care about you

and that want you for who you are, not for what you can give

im sorry

i dont know why i do this

its ok

no its not okay mal

i know

but it will be

you keep saying that but i keep disapointing you

all of you

i go into it knowing itll be the same btu hoping itll be diffrent

it takes time to fix habits

its been this way seince i was 9

i got hurt by one guy never brought it up again and just let everyone use me

i understand that

i know cosmos right i know im addicted

and idek what i wnat

idk if ive had real connections with anyone

mm

im sorry mal..

you dont need to apologize to me

its ok

i do

i havent ben listening to you

when your just trying to help

its ok

i understand that its not easy

im not even trying to get better.

mm

im really sorry mal..

last night i dindt do it right away i kept saying no for atleast an hour

thats good

i knew he was gonna use me

i shouldnt have let him

but he kept pushing

yeah

its not easy

what do i do?

honestly im not entirely sure

the way i got out of that problem probably isnt the best way

but i think just like you would with any other habit you js need to remove whatever's causing the temptation

make it so youre not able to give in

but thats like

i question the same things with wje. wje fucked me up and got me sent to the middle of fucking louisiana.

oh.

technology fucked me and continues to fuck me up

im an addict

you also got an addiction to technology and social media

mal also has a bit of an addiction

oh..

addictions happen

you can't control if you have an addiction or not

what you can control is how you respond to an addiction

ill try

i promise

i believe in you

if someones weird or wants that ill cut em off

yeah

im sorry

there's nothing to be sorry about

oh..