I'm thinking about killing myself. No beacause I want to die, not because my life is "horrible." but beacause it would just be easier. I've hurt everyone I've crossed at least once. My dad wouldn't have to yell anymore. My therapist and friends wouldn't worry. My war would be over. I wouldn't hurt anyone else. There would be peace with my leaving. Maybe it would hurt people, but maybe it's give them time to stop worrying, to heal. It's not like "I'm going to do it," and it's not me having a mental breakdown I feel calm I just feel Life would be easier without me. I fear I already know the answers I'm going to get to this. But i do truly believe, it would be easier without me.
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Cosmo idk
no
Cosmo idk
charlie
Orlaith
cosmo
Orlaith
I dont have a plan to kms
Cosmo idk
still
-Vinxity🩶
No
-Vinxity🩶
Absolutely not
-Vinxity🩶
Please
Orlaith
.
-Vinxity🩶
Either way
Orlaith
its just a thought
Orlaith
you guys are saying no to a thought
-Vinxity🩶
Yeas I am
Orlaith
that kinda makes no sence
Orlaith
also lilz, was school canceld for you today?
-Vinxity🩶
Yes
-Vinxity🩶
It makes total sense
-Vinxity🩶
Because 99.9% of the times people put thoughts in reality
Orlaith
no
Orlaith
not even close
Orlaith
yes lots of people kill themselves, but alot more only think about it
Cosmo idk
that is true
Cosmo idk
however you unfortunately have a history
-Vinxity🩶
True
Orlaith
im aware
Orlaith
lately
Orlaith
its hard to do anything
Orlaith
even breathe
Orlaith
like i tried journaling again and it was 10x harder than it shouldve been
Orlaith
i cant bring myself to do much
Orlaith
like being on here , replying to people, its just too much wrok
Orlaith
i just want to do nothing
-Vinxity🩶
Have you been able to eat:
Orlaith
i mean i ate a peice of toast today
-Vinxity🩶
Please go eat more.
Orlaith
im making food
Orlaith
my one and only home
Orlaith
FUCK IT GOT BLOCKED
scooter22
I DO
scooter22
when i'm 20
Orlaith
20?
Orlaith
uhm..
Orlaith
ok.
scooter22
maybe sooner
scooter22
20 is the lateist
scooter22
idfk how to spell it i speed
scooter22
sped