A Message of Apology and Farewell

i know what i did wasnt okay and I understand that now. i shouldn't have taken my own things out on everyone and I shouldn't have hurt others just because I'm hurt. i really really wish yall the best.

noo pls dont

You didn’t hurt anyone Rylee, honestly

All you did while you were here was make things awesome

Please don’t take that away from all of us

yeah i had the best times of my life when you were with me rylee

if u do ima kill myself too so we can be together in hell

rylee you are amazing. please

I’m sorry if this comes off as rude, but you kids need to stop being so dramatic about killing yourselves

For one thing, you’re obviously not going to go through with it. I know that from experience

Also, you’re going to get older and realize that all this stuff you’re freaking out about is really not that big of a deal

your not and your right we need to stop killing your self is just permantley ending a temporary problem

Take it from a dude who’s been through everything you always come to me about

Best decision I ever made was to stop giving a shit

welp lets hope this attempt will work then. 5th times the charm.

Not completely to the point where I’m empty and don’t do anything, but just not giving a shit about all the lame stuff

ive been at that point for so long lmao.

Rylee you’re not going to kill yourself and I know that

Yeah no shit

you know how long IVE been at that point?

and what if i do?

rylee we all go through shit. it's what makes us stronger

6 fuckin years bro

Get used to it

Figure out how to deal with it

Shit’s not gonna change unless you change it

i cant change it.

Can’t just sit here trying to kill yourself and think all your problems are gonna magically go away

Yeah you fucking can

You probably don’t know how, and that’s okay

i am the problem jake.

ive been going through shit for 10 years and it took me 9 of those years to do something about it. sometimes it takes a long time. but it can happen if you make it.

But just giving up is stupid

Who cares if you’re the fucking problem? Fix it!

There are people to help, resources to help

but i cant.

Don’t say that, because you haven’t even tried

yes you can. you just need to figure out how/

You haven’t REALLY tried

I HAVE

You may THINK that you’ve done everything you can, but believe me, there’s a whole lotta shit to be done still

IVE BEEN ON AND OFF OF MEDS, 17 DIFF THERAPISTS, A FUCKING WARD.

Rylee

Life is gay. Honestly, it is.

fr

There comes a point where we just have to accept that

Not in a negative way, but in a way that allows us to figure shit out.

i just dont see a point anymore, everything comes to an end and I cant accept it.

You DONT know what to do now. I know your feelings exactly because it’s what I thought day after fucking day, year after fucking year

when things come to an end it's sad but it leaves openings for more and even better things may come

Figuring out the solution is up to you. I know it’s hard as absolute fuck to do, and you may never fully know it, but that’s the key

But just giving up?

rylee all you need to know is that your life matters it may not seem that way a lot of the time but it does and you ending it just puting a big whole in the hearts of ppl that care abt you

Giving in?

That’s the worst possible decision you could ever make

You’re religious, right?

mhm.

What religion are we talking about here?

christan

Great, so am I.

Right off the bat, imma just say that killing yourself is a one way ticket straight to hell

And that’s bad enough by itself

yeah

Second, there’s a reason you’re on this earth. There’s a reason you’re here, and even a reason why you have all these struggles

Romans 8:28, check it out

All things will work together for the good of those who love the Lord

Might not seem like it, but this is all part of the plan

Also, all this torment in your mind, it’s just Satan trying to impede that plan cause he’s an asshole

So tell him to back the fuck off

i just dont get why he gave me this plan.

Yeah, nobody does!

Which is the fantastic thing about belief

Faith means believing and trusting in something no matter what

If you really believe that God’s purpose for your life was for you to suffer and then die, then that’s just wrong. I’m sorry, but it’s absolutely wrong

even when it seems God hates you he rlly does not he is just pushing you along the right path

thats just what i think atp.

We never truly know why God does the things he does, but it is stated numerous times that it’s His will. And He only wants what’s good for us

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29‬:‭11‬ ‭NLT‬‬

You’re so young Rylee!! You have your whole life ahead of you.

Now is not the end. I can assure you that.

God created all of us for a purpose and everything we go through is to get us to that purpose. it's hard to know why he put us here and what is plan is, but i can promise you his plan was not for you to kill yourself. he has wonderful plans for you and you need to live to find out all he has in store for you and your life. i know it's hard and i know it sucks, trust me, i've been through so much, i know it's hard. i know it seems pointless. i know the world is cruel. but god is with you through it all and he loves you and he wants you to live.

it just hurts.

i cant feel my body

I feel that.

jassy what did u do.

i know it hurts

im so sorry

“But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭53‬:‭5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Think of what Jesus went through for us to be here, for us to be forgiven.

idk but i cant feel my head or my legs or my arms

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” ‭‭James‬ ‭1‬:‭2‬-‭4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Jassy maybe drink some water and lay down

then how can i handle it.

What do you mean?

How am I supposed to know the answers?

ok

I’m not you, Rylee. I don’t know exactly everything that you’re going through.

The only people that know that are you, and the Lord.

mhm.

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” ‭‭Mark‬ ‭11‬:‭24‬ ‭NIV‬‬

These are words spoken directly out of Jesus’ mouth

BELIEVE!!!

you can handle it with the lords help. pray and ask him to help you and he will answer your prayers

“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭55‬:‭22‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Satan be shakin’ in his boots rn cause he knows healing’s about to happen

and rylee we're always here for you if you need to talk. i know you don't know me very well but you know jake and jassy and im sure they're more than willing to talk to you if you need it.

i just wanna be ok again.

And you will be. I promise, you will be. That feeling will go away one day.

afk ima go shower see if i can feel my body again and rylee you were always ok your mind just told you otherwise

With the Lord’s help.

you will be

but what if he doesnt help.

he will

you just have to trust him

He always will.

he will help anyone who asks

He will not abandon you.

““What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off?” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭18‬:‭12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Have you ever heard this parable?

no

I suggest you read it, but to summarize, a shepherd loses one of his 100 sheep. Rather than abandoning the one that was lost and protecting the rest, he seeks out the one lost sheep.

If you can’t tell, the shepherd is God and the sheep are us

mhm.

I’m a bit rusty so I can’t fully explain the parable from memory, but basically the Lord is saying he will do anything for even one lost soul

“for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith.” ‭‭1 John‬ ‭5‬:‭4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

i will give this one last try. ONE fucking try.

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭13‬-‭14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Maybe one try is all you need

But it also takes work on your part

Clearly what you’ve been doing isn’t working

I would urge you to work intensely on your faith and relationship with God

Because it will undoubtedly help you beyond what you can imagine

if u say so.

I’ll be right here with you working on my faith

Because I have a VAST amount of things I can work on

thank you.

Of course!! I promise we’ll get out of this, Rylee.

just please dont give up on me like the rest.

Of course not, I would never do that

Lucky for you I’m the most persistent and determined person ever

I just don’t know when to quit 😂

thats why i love talking to you :)

Please, let me know if you ever need anything, ESPECIALLY faith related

ok is she not gonna kill herself

okay.

No, we’ve done some epic healing

for rn i wont.

good

sideye

lol.

Now I gotta make sure Charlie is doing alr with that too

she is not online rn

oh

im going to bed, night.

Goodnight!

sleep well :)

Another cool thing to note, start and end your day with God. Read the Bible, pray, do whatever

I gotta work on that more as well

jake are u still gonna be online?

I’ll be working in a few minutes

glad I had so much downtime tho

Suck on that Satan

L

will u still check in?

Yeah, totally!

ok

i gotta ask u a question though

I’ll be gone for a bit, see ya

Oh sure what’s up

so im gonna be going to alabama for a few days in a couple weeks

can u take care of chxl while im gone?

Totally can

ik she has fletcher but he is not always online so

stfu

Kidding

your getting on my nerves and no im not im going to see my grandpa he just had heart surgery so my mom is taking us up there to see him

Alr I’ll stop

we both know that your not gonna stop

Hope everything goes well with your gramps

Nah I will

No means no

I dont completely lack self control

but most of time you do so

and thxs he is still in the hosptial he should be going home tmr or satuday

damn not jake actually working and not fucking around on this website my little bro is growing up way to fast lmao

DONT DO IT

THERES SO MUCH CHEESE TO LIVE FOR

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wtf

WTF HAPPENED

IS RY OK

OMG IM SO SRRY I MISSED IT ALL

shes fine

jake talked her out of it

OMG THANK GOD

I owe jake

fr

this mf at this point can talk anybody out of anything

Fr

lol

So wats going on?

nothin rlly im jsut texting some friends

Oh oki I'll stop, you go talk to your friends

Bye bye gn

gn lol

jake r u back yet?

hello?

jake?

WHAT THE SHIT IS HAPPENING

IDK

Fr I’m too good 😎

Jk don’t wanna be prideful, I’m just doing what’s right

hello?

youtube.com/shorts/eswybE7htyU?si=VcaYE1DJkQSGm_xK

jake watch that video