Lumberjack Hacker

ok

bruh

wydm bruh

nothing

go on

yea so he was like

uh I cant call I wanna be w my family

idrc if its important

cause I wanna watch TV w my family

so now

idrk

he's a dumbass and also probably annoyed with everything

ok but

I wasn't accusatory

I literally said

can u ask

to stay

and he was like I wanna spend time w them

yeah I know he's just kind of an intolerant dumbass and I think you're overwhelming him too

trust me i know the feeling lmao

I wouldn't care if he was spending time usually but this is so important to me

oh yea can u send him the link to this

when he comes back

this post?

he can talk here

yea

k

but yea i

I js feel so horrible

yeah ik

but uh ur my friend so u can talk to me abt it right

like

do u mind researching it for a couple mins

js so u understand

its ok if not

js watch a short video or smth

ok ur gone </3

I'm tryna draw

the paranoid android rn

sorry sorry a german dude is trying to hit on my girlfrined

*girlfriend

WWWWWWWWW

yea cause

hitchhikers guide + radiohead

Noice

see you're so autistic too

yea

so is that a no

for the researching

its okay if it is I js kinda need smn to understand and clearly its not aiden

no i will remind me again

what it is

js scroll

up

idk I feel shitty

that he chose them over smth that was important to me

important to the relationship in general

I know

but they're also his family

ik but

this is genuinely so important

like SO importan

t

also the research topic isn't here

its not like his family's going anywhere

retroactive jealousy ocd

k

oh an tell him to get on coroom all day tmrw js in case I have access to smth

an also as soon as he's back

ok

if he even cares ig

see i think this is overwhelming him

idek man

I meant like

have it open

in case

I can be there

bc I cant text him or smth

not that he hasta be w me the whole day

js so he'll see if I'm there

genuinely feel so ignored and unappreciated

I made the effort to try and fix this tg

uh huh

have you considered

that he's not actually a great bf

aiden do you see this

what are u suggesting

you're a shitty boyfriend step up your game

okay well he's prolly not gonna like that

I don't think we are

I js think

in some ways

he needs to

not push me away when

its important

also delete that

ion want any

ideas

what

delete this

and this

why

bc

he already doesn't like you

idc if he likes me lmao

and I just don't want him seeing that

can u be my friend and delete it

ugh

thank you

he's a good boyfriend

and I love him

I just need him

to be there when its important

and not just

keeping me company but actually

being there

I thought madi was a good girlfriend till I realized we were bothing using each other subconsciously and it was hurting our lives

gianni stop

I know him and I know me

I'm not breaking up with him over this

unless he truly doesn't care anymore

I'm not suggesting you break up

then what are u suggesting

I'm suggesting you stop attributing the problems to anything other than the fact that you guys aren't working well together

based on like the last 5 sentences that's what ur suggesting

NOT that you guys aren't compatible

so what do u suggest

But that you guys aren't able to work through things properly

okay

thanks

what do u SUGGEST

well you don't want to entertain the thought of breaking up and frankly I don't think quitting is ever the answer

give me a moment to think

okay

honestly all I can think of is BOTH of you committing to ONE single process, some sort of intensive day-by-day routine sort of thing to fix yourselves and fix the relationship

the relationship isn't what needs fixing

we're not constantly battling or headbutting

You're not going to solve anything by working individually is what I mean

duh

im trying to

It's a collaborative effort

get him

to realize that

bro fuck this lol

but he's so insistent on me being independent

dude who even are u

it’s aiden

no its not

prove it

ahmi

it is

get on coroom rn

no i’ll get on my account

no like to talk

I can talk

for a while

like out loud

i’m still with my family watching bm

alright

black monkeys

stop it gianni

js took a break to come back to whatever this is

fuckkkk this

lolll

alr brb

trying to TALK

I'm trying to talk

can you please both just listen

me when a man doesn't take accountability

stop

stop it

genuinely stop

dude what?????

stop it

I just

i

aiden

I don't think ur a bad bf

I just want you

work on this

with me instead of against me

I'm not blaming you I just

I need you to understand the importance of it and take it seriously

I'm sorry

I'm not trying to overwhelm you I just need to communicate all of this to you and I need you to listen

that means staying with me and hearing my pain and working on it with me and trying your hardest not to leave

(this is good you're doing good amy)

I know its hard and

I know its not easy

but its important and its not avoidable

if you still want me and still want this

then I'm always here

to hear you and listen

and in return

I need the same back from you

you're a good guy and the best bf I could ever ask for

so I'm asking you genuinely as the girl you love to just listen and try to help

because this is rlly important

its worth our effort

okay thats

probably it

👍👍👍

im not sure what else to say but have fun w ur family and I mean that geniunely

did u ever actually research it

oh shit

wait

i meant to oh my gosh

I had it copied

its okay

js lmk if u do

man I'm so tired and sick of everything lmao

I feel like geniunely dying

my whole head and chest and I've spent so much of this fuckass week just crying

I'm so tired of it all I just

I want

it to stop

ik I sound so emo and

idek man lmfao

just

lowest point ever

just did

yeah I know it really sucks

But you can definitely get through it

I'm trying

It does sound a lot like that

I just need him to work with me instead of against me

And while I'm not one for self diagnosis and labelling, I think it's a good way to categorize it

and if u can help to gianni

of course

I got treated for OCD in the same way RJOCD is treated

how?

So I'm familiar with how that all works

is there a way to do it w me and Aiden?

exposure & CBT

probably

but

I was supposed to get CBT

I would research more

my parents made me lie so I wouldn't have to

if u have time tn

that's fucked

could u

yeah I'll make some time for it

I don't wanna ask Aiden idk if he's up for it plus he had to get up super early for a meeting

so he prolly needs some extra sleep tday

thank you so muhc

much

geniunely

any time bro

:)

speaking of getting up I miss wade

hey can u js talk to me about it for a litte

not wade

yeah np

rjocd I meant

its the worst thing ever

its like

RJ for short

continuous compulsive

thoughts and movies and

I wish I could js make my brain stop but

if I don't like indulge in thinking about it I feel anxious

or like I'll feel anxious because of it and try to rationalize it

yeah that's typically how OCD works

I don't really understand how rj can be related to ocd

like I guess the compulsions

and anxiety

what helped me during exposure therapy was like literally letting those thoughts flow openly through my mind but observing them rather than accepting them

can u explain that more

I found that it was most helpful to me once I understood what was happening

ahmi

coroom

now

oh also Aiden if u see this start here

damn

summoned

I'm three

there

like when those thoughts come in don't let yourself get overwhelmed by them, just sort of mentally step back and look at them

consider them

think about them and where they may come from

what they actually mean

and sort of evaluate it with a positive mindset

okay I get it

if you get stressed, just ride the wave

it'll be alright, just don't let it block you into negative thoughts

just ride it out

I'll see if I can find that paper about thinking errors again

that was really helpful to me

aidne?

aiden I love you

we can talk more tmrw

<3<3<#<#

we're gonna get thru this

its hard but

I love you so much my love

I drew Marvin too!

also gianni, if u see this too

cool it on Aiden.

fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

thank you

oh also aiden

stay on coroom js keep it oprn

as well as disc

and and

if you can

research abt rjocd

please

ok bye fr now

I love you

geniunely more than anything

ok well

I'm back bc

i feel

rlly insecure and scared that

ur gonna leave me

and I keep thinking of the celebrities and

people you've liked and

my head hurts

and

I miss you

:/

aiden

idenadein

hola

wait i didn’t see these comments earlier wtf

its ok dw

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