Waiting for Fletcher

Hey can we chat?

sure

Whats up?

Hey are you ok?

nah not really

What’s going on?

Todays just been hell, and i need fletcher to get on fore i stab myself

im not fletcher but I can sure as hell tell you not to stab yourself

Nah

I'm not Fletcher either

buttt...

Well I’m not fletcher, but please don’t hurt yourself. Do you want my email so you can talk to me whenever?

DAMNIT

hehehehe

Toby i dont need it thanks though

love the slim pfp

I hate you twix..

Aww I love you too :)

🖕

👍

To much damn power

yk if you use the power tm itll fade

Well please if you do. I’ve been suicidal for a long time and I can definitely help somebody in need

Thanks it took me like 4 hours

Angel, like I said, hurting yourself is not going to solve any problems, nor will it take away any pain. Instead it will just bring you more pain to focus on, leaving the old pain to swiftly take its place after you're done.

Angel please beleive us

Its not my fault..

I got reminded of my past

Now i cant stop looking back

The past is a bitch, I'll tell you that from experience

I nearly had a bit of a relapse myself today

No

Its not..

Thats why i keep looking back

That's why it's a bitch

But focusing on the past is what brings the pain

Like its ok to hold onto something but not like this i mean ive been holding onto one thing ill never get back sense less the middle way throught 4th grade..'

And i act as if ima be back ina week..

Yes, it was good, but it's over. It happened, and there is nothing you can do to get it back. Sucks, but that's the realization we have to make.

I held onto my past for 6 years

6 years of pain

only growing every time I thought of it

but I didn't want to let it go

....

Eventually, I faced my biggest fear, the thing I dreaded.

I had to move on

To focus on the now

What's happening in the present

and at that time, it wasn't good

So I had to fix it

Yeah you have to move on. That’s how I’ve dealt with r@pe and that

Worrying about the future only gives us anxiety. It's okay to be aware, but if we don't take care of things now then the future really WILL be bad

And you don't have to completely forget the past

Twix

Remember the good times, but don't dwell on them

Think of what you've learned and how it can make you a better person today

Ihave a picture of those -good times- and i cant just get rid of it i always have it with me..

I know, I know how that feels

You can keep the memories close

But don't let them consume you

I cant help it as long as i have the picture

The good times were good, but if you can't get those times back what's the sense in carrying that pain with you?

Yes you can help it. I know it sounds daunting and damn near impossible, but you can.

It took me 6 years to realize that

And even still I'm working on fully letting go

But it makes things so much better

Every time i look at the damn picutre im back there, im js visiting my dad, ill be back next week. With all the people, at my home.

I dont think about my past at all when my freind had that picture

i never missed it when he had it..

Burn the picture

3rd person whos said it

but no

why not?

Because i cant go anywhere without it..

ill want it back

ik it

well don't do that

let go

don't let that desire consume you

i cant..

you can

it takes immense strength

strength I know you have

I dont want to.

ik it hurts but..

its ok

ill js keep the picture.

Well that's exactly why you feel this way

I didn't want to either

I struggled with the decision to let go for so long

but at some point you have to realize that it's much better than everlasting pain

i trsut you but

i just cant let myself..

I treid before i tried

I can't force you to do anything

But I really urge you to think deeply about the choices you have

I gave it to my friend and told him to give it back when we would travel like we said and for him not to give it back at all even if im like broken down crying begging for them to not give it back..

but i got upset w/ him and he said i need them i almost gave em away

almost let it go

but he gave it back

i already tried..

If at some point you wish to try again

I would suggest giving it everything you've got

I would give it to someone

but like i cant ask for that

here's a fun idea

ik how you feel

hm?

Tie it to a balloon and have a nice, closure-filled goodbye

at least you have fletcher thi

tho

NO

no)

?

no to twix not chu amy

sorry lol

it’s chill

Twix

hiya

Wtaf would i do that

Tbh i js said what i wanted i js cant ask for that..

Well, I hope you find the strength in you to fully let go of the past

You don't have to do it all at once either

baby steps :)

i js

want someone to steal it from me so i have no choice

cause i wanna let go but

yk

I know it's hard

It's a matter of personal willingness

...

i want him rn.. ):

He'll be on when he can

he hasent yet today

i edited a pic of myself

i dont think youd aprove at all

guess u died :/

I saw it

You're not any of those things

damn

You're beautiful, kind, amazing, incredible, I could say so much

Lies :/

nuh uh

yuh uh

NUH UH

YOU'RE SUCH A LIAR

YOU'RE AMAZING

Big words 0-0

dude my chreombook js blocked yt :/

oh nvm

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING AND KIND AND INCREDIBLE AND FUNNY AND AWESOME AND SOMEONE I LOOK UP TO

AND I LOVE YOU (BUT NOT IN A WAY THAT WILL MAKE FLETCHER PUNCH YOU)

BS I AINT BEAUTIFUL

IM HLAF AMAZING

FUCK KINDESS SHIT

INCREDIABLE SEEMS FAKE

YOU'RE FULL AMAZING

NUH UH

YOU'RE NOT FAKE INCREDIBLE

YOU'RE VERY KIND

AND YOU'RE HOT AF (BUT NOT IN A WAY THAT WILL MAKE FLETCHER KILL)

*KILL ME

AND I LOVE YOU MORE (NOT INA WAY THATLL MAKE FLETCHER PUNCH ME)

And whoa~

im not hot f

fa*

YEAH YOU ARE

Fs**

BUT ALSO NOT IN A WAY THAT WILL GET ME ARRESTED

DUDE ARE YOU TRYNA CONVINCE ME IM A GOOD PERSON OR HYPING ME UP RN TF?

BOTH

AND IM NOT CONVINCING YOU OF ANYTHING, IM TELLING YOU THE DINGLE DAMN TRUTH

wait what did you say

I was on another tab

i siad

damn right I bet fletcher loves that

he hasent seen it

dum dum

he should

he'd love it

frfr

cause

idek

niceeee

Whoa

Woah

Dude

what

i joined my old freinds live and he rememberd it was me js from my yt name

ayyy

I straigt up said said "​Yippie u remember that i exist ^^"

I made a mistake i said L

lol it's all good

He said wdym L

Im boutta roast this monkey up

or sumn shi

i forgot

lmao

im the only person in hea tbh

im js talking to him

hes kinda

playing a game

or afk rn?

idek

rip

Hes back

nice

www.youtube.com/watch?v=QuoALWX-y8o

hes doing thsi

hes gone

WTAF DUDE

MAKE UR MIND UP

HES BACK

dum dum

lmao

hey my computer's fucking itself so imma go charge it

cya!

Alr

Goodnight ttyl