Shopping with Mom

chat someone said my leg looks like a zebra

no worries!

bro what lmao

wsp

um

hiiii

oh shit

heyyy

bahaha I got ur pussy pics

my pussies didnt consent to being photographed

well too bad

....

okayyy

lol

its me animals dw

ikik

that was wayyyy too fun of a call

yeah my mom saw them

my mom almost heard me laughing bro

oh no

:/

theres like 53 on one leg from one day

but its okay

geez thats a lot,,

shell prolly tell my dad and ill just get bs that im not trying enough and ima faluire and worthless nd shit

they said it looked like a zebra for a reason

its kinda funny tbh

damn

im sorry

its okay im used to it

you shouldnt be tho

eh its okay

so hru?

its not okay, its abuse

...

mhm

im pretty good hbu

ive been better

welll no matter what im giong to have to fucking deal with it.

so just it be okay, cause its never gonna change, and ill just leave asap, then everything will be ok.

im sorry dear

is oki

change comes from within

yeah because im not trying.

cause nothing i do is enough

and never will be.

thats not true

im getting off.

not true

bye

cya

oh ok

cya

parker is hruting my feelings

whats he doing?

damn

i feel like hes trying to destroy my hope

i dont think thats the goal

i think he js wants to protect you

well

hes not.

privately

uh ok

where do we go

doc?

i can make one

nvm its not imprtant..

its okay mal

im js over reacting

nono

you can tell me

rlly

its ok

just

smthin along those lines

oh damn

ok

well thats not good tho

wdym

delete thst

ty

yup

i fele like im js over reacting

no

idk

well if like thats how you feel then thats what matters, ykwim

like if you feel bad then you feel bad and thats that

the circumstances dont matter all that much

and thats totally valid

damn

but irdk

damn

then why am i not allowed to be?

you are allowed to be

thats manipulative

he makes me feel bad for not telling him stuff

and thats not ok

geez

and why would he tell me he has his reasons then tell me its a secret

idk whats js weird

*that

yea thats js not ok

i cant like

ect

it seems like he rlly struggles with his self worth and happiness and hes taking it out on you

which isnt ok

yeah

thats js not fair to you

i dont think so either

but it doesnt make it ok

yeah thats a hard situation

damn

i dont think hes any good for me mal

oh damn

well

?

why hello there

why hello there my honeybunchkins

thats new lmao

hru love

tired

but content

real

well thats good

I'm not

YES YOU ARE!!!!

Nope ydk what I just said to her

yes you are parker.

Nah huh

yr j going through smthim

Doesn't matter?

you make me happy all the time

and i enjoy speonding time with you

Uh huh.

im not lying

I'll believe that ig

i guess?

parker you have no reason to not belive me

Idk :p

Hmmmm ig not

you dont..

Ok

uh yall ok?

But I'd have reason to be how I am towards you recently

Im fineee

i belive that you do, and ive been asking if your okay and trying to be here for you

and its fine how youve been twoards me

are you sure

You can talk w Mal abt stuff but she doesn't know everything does she?

Not really

👍

i never said she knows everything.

i just trust her and wanted her help.

and wdyem everything?

i dont know everything, but i genuinely care abt both of you and wanna help when i can

Nvm I didn't mean that

parker

i understand you have shit going on

I'm just saying that you can't say it's fine to everything

I really don't

If Mal knew some stuff she'd see why I'm like this toward you rn

Cuz in my eyes

so its my fault?

No

its fine parker

ok?

I'm saying that my approach hasn't been correct since you haven't seemed to learn anything and keep doing things that hurt yourself. So I'm trying something different and trying to be realistic with you

Uhhhh nope

but parker it isnt your job to fix me.

and your approch now is helping worse than ever.

Gotta change again then cuz the first approach didn't help enough apparently

Parker

it

is

not

your

job

to

fix

me

No but you don't seem to be helping urself

...

im fucking trying parker

Who's is it then

Ik

its my own damn problem.

Mmm

I understand that

im not gong to let you help, with any approach.

ill go to you , and ask for help

if i want help.

its not your job to fix me.

Ik

then stop trying

Hmmm

That's my decision to make

I can choose what to do w myself

yeah with yourself

NOT ME

you are not me

And you are not me

Common sense

and im not fucking trying to be

im trying to be here for you

That's a good idea

not fucking fix you.

No need I'm fine

then so the fuck am i.

I'm totally fine

You aren't

Me doing all that, acting this way is a front

if i was or wasnt its none of you buisness, if i go to you then i go to you, then you can be there for me

Just a way to try and help

i dont need you to fix me.

i dont want you to fix me.

Nobody can be fixed

We aren't devices

Or objects

We can be altered

In our mindset

Our bodys

Or just us

Your missing the point.

But you can fix someone

You miss alot of points.

Can't

Mb

if i want help

i will go and ask for it.

See, that's all and good but what to do if you are making bad decisions

if im mkaing bad decseins, you dont go and do the same

you know what thall do

make me never fucking tell you anything again.

Yet you still do it

I can't make you do anything

I've told you I wasn't good for you and I expected this at somepoint

an argument?

that fucking happens.

Obviously

it dosent mean the end of the world

But you

You

:p

The things

You say are fine aren't

i saw the commet parker.

Oh ik

You let people stomp all over yourself just so someone else doesn't have to feel that way

Just so someone does have to go thru that

And that's fine

it is fine.

But not when you are like this

because i get out of feeling fine.

No it isnt

That doesn't fucking matter

oh.

You shouldn't sacrifice yourself for others

it dosent fucking matter?

really?

so then how come

You aren't some sort of hero

every time you feel

upset

you ingore it

I haven't felt upset

AND

its "fine"

because you will feel better tmrw?

Because I am not at the same point as you

ok and?

Ik that I am going to be ok

Ik it

if someone is drowning they are still drowning

and how do you not know i know im going to be okay

This same qoute

yes.

Because if how you act how you talk and what you do

Clear indications that you kitty are not ok

i feel fine right now

you act like im fucking weak and in need of pretecting, and that i will never be fine

Nope

i get out feeling fine because i am not weak

and i feel fucking better than i used to.

and it keeps getting better

Never said you are weak

you dindt have too.

Mmm

You are strong for making as far as you have

But strong people can make dumb decisions

Ydk if someone is strong or anything till they go thru something

And you kitty have gone thru alot of bs

i know i have

and guess what

And you are still here

exactly

so let me be here

and let me be fine.

sometimes im not

but most of the time im happy.

Fine is a word for self content

Lies

thats not a lie

It is

i dont always have to be sad

ITS NOT A FUCKING LIE PARKER

70% I TEXT YOU

Happy and sad aren't the only emotion someone can feel

IM HAPPY

im aware.

im fucking aware

dont talk to me lik eim dumb,

because im not fucking udmb,

dont act like im lying

you act like im not ever happy.

Uh huh..

but you dont know that.

ydk how i am not around tyoy.

You are mostly happy. Sureeeeee

and 70% of the time around you i am happy.

i was happy when we were watching movies.

i was happy when i was talking abt my wife

i was happy on s

sw

was happy to go to my moms

Sw has him the weirdo

ok and?

dosent mean i cant be happy.

I never said it did

the longest ive been sad abt smthin is like, a week.

Just a statement

and that was forrver ago.

i get over things

maybe they come back maybe they dont

but inbetween im happy.

i was happy when i made this group post.

i was happy when i went to the store today

Ok

i was happy when i woke up.

Ok

dont act like i cant be happy

just bc i have shit going on

You are happy right?

not right fucking now.

Mostly happy

alot of the time.

Well I fukin know that

Take too much medicine to make urself happy

Don't eat si you don't get in trouble

Fine people to date to find joy

Key things happy people t Do

i dont have to be happy all the time to be happy.

Then Don't say ur happy

i am most of the fucking time.

Sure and I have something going on

Let's tell the truth

i am.

its not my fault you just see me as this sad fucking imp that can never get better and you have to protect.

well wake up parker.

im not.

I have nothing going on except the fact you can't accept that things aren't ok

I am awake

I KNOW THINS ARENT OKAY BUT THAT DOSENT FUCKING MEAN I CANT BE

More awake than you it seems

IK MY LIFE IS SHIT

DOSENT MEAN I HAVE TO BE SAD

IK SHITS ROUGH

Not what I am saying

yes it fucking is parker.

im sorry you see me this way.

Then fine let me say that

You shouldn't be happy with what goes on there

It's bs and you just accept it

you serosuly think i havent.

You have

k.

But then just let it

Mmmmmmmmm

so.

Can't give an example cuz where this is

no go ahead.

Wtv you be happy ig bye

give a fucking example

It's fine that ur dad did that cuz he's ur father

There cya

i dont think its fine.

parker.

i think that when im 18 im going to move out.

and i cant wait till them.

then*

so im happy, that one day im going to turn 18 and move out.

Yea you "cant wait". Perfect explanation

god parker

Realistically you ain't making it that far without someone's help

im aware.

So that's why I help

i dont need your help parker.

esp when you arent helping

So that you can survive until then

Right now

i can survive.

Ik I am not helping

i fucking can survive parker.

Cuz you don't like me being realistic

Not reasonable

Fuck you.

just fuck you.

I'll believe

You

So cya since I'm not helping

K, bye.

And that's against my goal

Bye bye

K.

smh

y'all are fuckin retards

pointless arguing sparring back and forth

may, you need to learn to accept help when its offered

over and over and over you have refused help from people who have tried to help you. you may listen, but you don't follow

i'm getting worried about you

everyone here is worried about you

please just listen and follow what we tell you. All of us are here for you

We all make mistakes. But not everyone follows with the correct actions. its time for you to follow the right path again

Ik I am :p

yes we are here

please dont worry..

I have to

What he Said is exactly what I wanted to say and more but I got a lil heated and didn't say it correctly. Sry...

as your friend I'll always worry about you

cosmo

fine

just pleas

dont worry

ok?

ill take my meds reguallry, i wont take any more than that.

ill eat atleast two meals a day, oaky?

i cant rpomise to stop cutting but i can promise to really fucking try

That's understandable

and what else

ill uh

ill get to know someone before getting with them

I'm sorry about what I said and how I've acted

and ill uh

what else?

ill stop talking to toxic or people using me

That is something that is impossible. If you care about someone you'll worry abt them bo matter what

then i wont

give you a reason to wrory

cuase this might sound horrible

but i draw the line at cosmo being upset

hm

hm?

wdym

is a confused hm

oh

like what do i mean

I dun get ut

it means

i care if everyone is upset, but i wont do anything to fix it (i might but like i wont do everything i can)

but if cosmo is upset, and i can fix it, i will do everything in my pwer too

witch is fucked up

but hes littearly my faveriot

and if he tells me to get better, ill get better,

if he tells me to stop smthin

i stop it

like when he put a " ): " i got SO sad

and threw away my weed to get a smiley face

But ig what you mean

huh?

Nthn

oh

Hm