Realization about Italy's Language

@Raggedking

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Hi Parker.

Ello.

How you been...

Eh.

My dad did Christmas because I was at my mom's during break. He just gave us money and took us shopping. Gave me 100$ and both my brothers 200$, told me I don't deserve as much because I have mental health issues.

That's bs. But at least you got something

Hm.

Hm?

You're still upset. You want me to leave you alone for now or no?

Its nothing big.

Still, do you or do you not

Jst.

My dad dosent think im getting better unless im perfect.

So ive been like non stop cooking or cleaning or baking of some sort

Well you are getting better

just so he dosent say im "not trying"

and yknow that reality thing?

Oh don't do too much to the point you get hurt

Hm

its been getting like WAY worse but i cant tell anyone cause my dad will get mad

and once again tell me im faking it

Oh...

Hes told me mutiple times that my depression or mental health issues arent real and i just "turn them on" when it affects me in a good way.

like when i dont wanna do soemthing

or when iw anna get out of somehting

not bc theyre real

and he thinks i have them when i want them.

im not getting better im js leraning how to hide

i still feel the same

Literally happens when your not doing anything so that doesn't add up

its so hard to stand up for him when i cant even tell my fucking therapist a big ass issue cuz of him

The therapist tells him afterward?

no but parker.

Hm wsp

i go into these phases where i lose touch with reality.

i see things.

Ik

this man convinces me to harm myself.

I've been there through three of em

she LEGALLY has to tell him

Ik..

he has convinced me to cut myself, to overdose.

nd lately ive been getting flashbacks

she would have to do her job and tell somoene.

during the epiosdes*

but the second my dad finds out

im not trying.

i want someonething.

Thought the point was to have someone to vent to not a person that give away the information you don't tell to people for a reason

i never made any progress.

yes but if they think you are going to harm yourself or otherers, or if you reccently have, they legally have to tell someone.

and i go into these epiosdes wehre i feel i have no control and harm myself?

Can you leave out that part then?

Yeah..

the fact that i see things and lose touch w/ reality is enoguh to end me up in the hospital

and i cant tell part of the truth

i js cant do anything

yeah

nd what if they think im lying?

What if this hasnt been a thing before, atleast all together?

i cant go back to the hosptial

i cant do with my dad being mad at me

so ill js keep over working myself

and like

You probably don't want to but if you need you can vent to me so your actually telling someone instead of holding it to urself

im sorry

No that's ok

I expected that answer but thought I'd try just incase

no i js still cant trust you rn

You should give yourself breaks every now and again

no

Ik

then he will think im js being lazy and faking depression

It's better than not being able to do anything cuz you pissed yourself too far

Pushed

Mb :p

i wont get to that point

You don't know that

last night i made a double german choclate cake

only time will tell

that was like

Oh?

yeah

Was it really good. Sounds amazing

idk i feel rlly sick and did last night i dindt eat it

i have consetly felt like throwing up

and rlly tired

Take a break..

i am rn

im doing school

Ok

but tn i have to make chikcen alfreado and clean the kicthen

and my room

and work on my book cause ion wanna fall behind

and js other things around the house

ok..

i made 2 pounds of speagti the other day

and it was lowk hard to mix in the sauce and meat

oh i also sometime this week need to make meatballs, pretal bites, and cheesecake.

Uh huh.

what?

Your are pushing urself too hard

no?

Why do you say that?

i js need to like sweep and dust daily, clean the kicthen every other day, school work, work on my book, make dinner, and cook for myself for lunch.

its not that much twin

oh and keep my room clean

Exactly

its not that much

what do you do in a daY?

Basic chores school babysitting

But with what you are doing ur basically a maid and would get paid pretty decently for doing all that

you could payed pretty good for babysitting

i mean its not that bad

Ik

Just my mom doesn't want me going to random peoples houses and our house wouldn't be good for other children

i stop school at 4, clean the kickten, dust and sweep, make dinner, clean my room, and then anything extra, than work on my book.

then sleep

then wake up

then do it again

oh

i love babysitting

mat and erica give me like alota money for watching aaden

But I'm babysitting London today so no school

oh

my birthdays soon

Oh...

im at my moms for it

i really wanna slep

Uh huh

but im at my moms so i do have access

Access to?

pills, alot of them.

Have anything planned for ur birthday

no

i js wanna hang out with jaeden tbh

but my mom will proly buy a cake and a present cause she loves me sometimes

Mm he gonna be free that day?

its a friday so after school yeha

if not i have him this weekend after firday so

i should have him today he dosnet have school on mondays

but once lynz leaves ima go back to bed for a bit cause im fucking tired

maybe

You should

idk

cause what if i wake up at lik 1?

my dads home he said at 3 or 4

Charlie you should get some sleep

i dont have much time

Ok but sleep is good

i might idk

i wann cry

figuring out if i wanna sleep or not is like

stressing me out to wehre i wanna cry

Charlie..

yh?

I, don't know.

i feel like throwing up

i think shes gonna leave soon

but its almsot 9 theres no point in sleeing

Why

cause ita almsot 9

and idk when jaeden wakes up

but hes also an hour behind

Mm

So is lex so it gets confusing sometimes cuz I have to think about it for a sec

ok

cool

Mb for saying one thing that didn't have relevance to you

srsly

:p

idc that you said something that didnt have relevance to me.

but if you wanna fucking act like this again go ahead.

I just being annoying

To get you away from thinking bout whether or not to sleep

i wasnt even thinking about that.

Sry

wtvr\

K

I'ma get child to sleep we'll talk later

She been tired so it shouldn't take long

lynz j left

What u gonna do

my eyes rlly hurt

Gtb

no what if jaeden wakes up

He'd want you to sleep

i miss him so much

https://www.reddit.com/r/AIO/comments/1q5vsbs/aio_about_this_guy_at_the_bar/

You should sleep

And wtf...

...

I missed reddit

i do miss jaeden though

we havent talked in like 4 days

Mm

he was so cute when i was leaving for my dads

he said he was gonna cry himself to sleep cause we couldnt talk

yknow this time you can hear it in his voice hes act interested in me and like likes talking to me

last time he js sounded bored

Oh he was that guy

Cough.

shoulve been more specific? 😅

Uh-huh. Sry to say but there's been too many guys to remember them all

damn.

there hanstbeen that many

...

There was like a new one every few days

whao.

not true.

there were only two close to eachother.

An exaggeration but it felt like that

the 24 yr old and jay.

they were close.

overlapping act.

U were into the 24 yr old ..

he

24.

24.

Ew.

Wtf...

BAHAHHAHABHA

jaeden is better anyways

That's actually gross

adress*

Jaesen?

huh......

Nvm why are you giving your address to people

okay first off, his names jaeden,

second, the 24 yr old has it.

No shit it's a typi

and he lives in new york

Why'd you give it to him.

Doesn't matter

so he could door dash me subway?

He can give away your info

That's not a good reason

OMG OMGOMGOMGOGMGM

So?

its a big fucking acolisment

can you call?

on tbrix

Accomplishment*

Sure

ok

I have to be quiet thou

child sleepig

Child sleeping on me

Yurr

hi

https://game8.co/games/pokemon-sword-shield/archives/280987

Bro you stole that one from me

ern

crazy