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hi may, how have you been?

Terrible :)

how come? do you wanna talk about it? also what time is it there for ya?

1am. And my family is being shitty like usual and I hate myself my personality and my body :)

why do you hate urself may? what do you think about your self?

Idk. I'm just not a good person

if you are not a good person you wouldn't have friend who adores you and loves you the way you are

either way, it doesn't matter how you think about urself. What matters how special you already are for your friends

shitty family is hard to change. the best thing you could do is wait till ur old enough to move out and be free whatever u wanna be

If I even make it to 18

you'll make it with us:) lets make it out of this together

we will give you a hand whenever u need it.

everyone deserves other people:)

I don't

it doesn't matter what u think may

u deserve them

False

I'm terrible lmao

dont try to deny it bc its the truth

why do u have amazing friends if ur terrible?

Probably pity

no bc they want to be a part of ur life

like how i wanna be one of the characters in ur story

:)

:)

you should get to sleep now may, its pretty late there

Anyway hru

im getting worse but i can help myself

What's wrong?

honestly i dont know, ive been thinking abt killing myself but im holding myself back from thinking that way

:( why?

but hey, im still here lol

stress, insecurities, and everything else

:(((((

So why don't you?

Don't pretend to be what you're not for other people, be yourself. Be who you want

its hard not being able to fit into our parents standards right?

Yeah

That's not good. Are you okay?

im not okay but i know im not alone.

you know how i feel right?

I guess

how does it feel for you may?

I don't really know how to describe how I feel most of the time

you often feel empty right?

Yeah, I guess

and ur tired of it?

Definitely

or u wanna remain in the same spot

what do you think that will stop u from feeling that way?

(remove the "that)

I don't really know

are you tired of staying in the same spot?

I guess

do you want to get out of that spot

Yeah

what do u think u need to do to get out?

Definitely get away from my family and transition. After that idk what

after that, you can be whoever u want without anyone stopping you

In years

thats why ur still here

how many more years

3 years until I'm 18

Then I'll be poor and uneducated

Likely homeless

ill help you

How would you do that

its not easy,but im willing to make u have a roof over ur head

ill send you money

or i could move somewhere near or smth

if ur gonna end up homeless im not letting that happen

i want to help you

I'll be fine. You live in the other side of the planet

that wont stop me from making it possible

just stay with us then we will all make it out together

I can't do 3 more years

then ill come with you

Nah

yeah

even tho im nothing to you, i rlly wanna make sure ur still with us no matter what

You aren't nothing to me

how come

Your my friend

see?

thats also how we feel towards u may

:)

stay with us and we will hold on to u tightly

I highly doubt anyone actually likes someone as shitty as me

no need to doubt that bc they stayed with u no matter what

Probably out of pity

why do you think of that?

Because I'm a terrible person

is it ur heart that said that u are or ur thoughts?

I'm a terrible person, it's just a fact

as i got to know u little by little i think ur not, why? bc i feel how much youve struggled

for u,not for us

What time is it for you?

15:37

may go to sleep now,its already late

I'm fine

did u eat smth today

Yes

Why

okay no reason just asking

what kinds of movies u like

Hmm idk. All kinds of movies. Wbu?

i like horror, crime documentaries, thriller

fav movie?

I pirate most of what I watch because I wouldn't be allowed to watch it otherwise. I've already watched it twice haha

my parents doesnt allow me to watch movies (my dad mainly bc its his tv)

whats pirate

Like watching it on illegal sites for free. I watch stuff on my laptop because I'm not allowed to watch anything interesting

On the tv

ahh i see, i only have school laptop and they blocked movie sites

Oof

Does it block vpns?

yep

but they didnt block bp,this site and vimeo

Have you tried bypassing it with the tor network

im a pussy, i might get in trouble

oof

most movies r on vimeo

but at the moment i tried my 5 pages of movies to watch list and none was on there

Try attackertv.so and see if it's blocked. It has tons of stuff

Dang

That sucks

fr

these r the movies ive watched this year

these r the movies ive watched this year, (excuse my handwriting)

Nice

n this one

these r the movies ive only watched from vimeo

Nice

That's a lot

What's your favorite movie

i cant choose but probably all the barbie movies,disney movies,monsters inc (mostly cartoons r my fav)

Cool

Cartoons are awesome

frfr

u got fav fruits?

That's a specific question

Bananas

EYYY

bananas r kinda sweet too

fav drink?

Hmmm chocolate milk

Wbu

monster energy drink

i have a lot

Never had monster

i love strawberry milk

theres lots of flavors

but my fav is this

Nice

when did u join bp btw?

Late march

I joined on my birthday

whens ur bday? march what

But I was on for years before that without an account

ahh i see

I would rather not share on the Internet rn

makes sense, well ill just say happy bday on march everyday lol

Lol

My old account had like 120 followers or something but I deleted it

who was ur first friend on bp

I'm not sure

Probably either bee crow or amy

i see

Oh and madally

mal is nice isnt she?

Yeah

are u bored?

A little

teheh sorry

Why are you sorry lol

bc ur bored bc of my questions or smth

Nah you're the only thing keeping me from dying tof boredom rn

Of* not tof

LOL same

but tbh im not bored of talking with u

whats ur fav song

I'm not sure

What's yours

same

slr i dropped my bottle

btw may,why did u choose the name may?

What's your favorite color

green and blue

it used to be black and red, but i decided to try smth different

hbu?

It just sounds right. I feel like it fits me best. Do you think it fits me?

Pink and yellow and orange

OOOOOOOOOOOO not bad

have u decided abt ur last name?

Nice

and it suits u tbh

Not sure. Might keep my current one, but if somebody ever adopts me I'll probably take theirs

i see

whats ur hobbies?

Playing videogames and reading. I want to get into sewing and making clothes and stuff but my parents won't let me. I'm currently secretly making a skirt out of a pillow case lol

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO what color was it

also why wont they allow u?

It's plaid (I think that's the right word) so multiple colors. I'll send a pic later

ACKKKKKKKKKk i wanna see it later

do u have any pets?

Because they think it's a girls hobby. I mean I am a girl but they don't think so so fuck them. Besides, boys can make clothes too

Yeah. My pfp is my cat

theres no such thing as a gender on the hobbies u like

hm,welp its up to u!

are cats ur fav animal

I have lots of favorites

Cats are one

i see

cats r our owners lol

We are the true pets lmao

like i dont mind being a slave to our owner, cats

They are cute owners

frfr

whats ur fears

Hospitals, my family, falling into a fire for some reason, I have lots. You?

bugs,heights,falling,ocean,small holes, big ass things like statue or smth

what r u most interested at the moment?

Hmm idk, you?

science, like earth,stars and planets

Cool

how do u fight boredom

Did you know if you touched the sun you would most likely die according to statistical evidence

Mostly by watching YouTube or reading

i thought if we touch sun we will be sun

i see

What’s been on your heart and mind recently?

Did you know that the earth is bigger than 3 whole world trade centers?

Not much besides "vhnsjefjotrjddcjrdn I want to fucking die"

W.H.A.T🤯

oh i see

Who is most important to you now?

My friends. Amy and crow and madally and you and tons of people

ur rlly sweet

:) you are too

stawpit im gonna explode

Don't explode

btw may

u like sum1 on bp?

Perhaps

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i wont ask who bc ik u wont tell me lol

Hehe

tehehehheheheeheeheheheh ur a private person.

Sorry

while on the other hand i would literally tell everyone abt me to everyone

dont be,ur rlly interesting

Thanks :)

I should sleep

It's nearly 3am

Gn :)

good that u decided to sleep lol

good night may

do u want me to delete this post?

Balls

Balls