Suicidal ideation Community

i'm tired of everything honestly. nothing fazes me anymore. everything seems fucking dull. life seems more like a chore that i am done doing. I want to fucking die. but I also don't. I have shit to live for, yet the more shit happens. i get pissed off, I lash out on people. I'm scared. I'm scared of saying something wrong and ruining everything. I'm starting to break. I can't take this anymore. I know I have SO many … Read more

I'm thinking about killing myself. No beacause I want to die, not because my life is "horrible." but beacause it would just be easier. I've hurt everyone I've crossed at least once. My dad wouldn't have to yell anymore. My therapist and friends wouldn't worry. My war would be over. I wouldn't hurt anyone else. There would be peace with my leaving. Maybe it would hurt people, but maybe it's give them time to stop worrying, to heal. It's not like "I'm going to do it," and it's not me having a mental breakdown I feel calm I just feel Life would be easier without me. I fear I already know the answers I'm going to get to this. But i do truly believe, it would be easier without me.

This is bree, I am sorry for everything, i broke the clean streak. I am tired. of everything, i dont wanna wake up crying again. i wamt itto stop, but i cant stop it so i will do it the only way i can, so goodbye. Thank you all for caring.but i have saved enough of your attention. just let me be someone forgotten in the back of your mind. And charlie. Im so damn sorry for doing this to you. I just cant. the scars are showing. weather is slowly picking up. and my parents will ask. I don'twant to go back. i'm sorru for doing this to every single one of you. please don't miss me.

,もし私があなたにとって重荷になっているとしたら、心からお詫び申し上げます。私を思いとどまらせようとしないでください。幸せを感じる日もありますが、それ以外の日は死んでしまいたいと願っています。私はもうこの人生に深く沈み込んでしまっています。時々、死がもっと早く訪れてほしいと願う一方で、友達と一緒にいたいとも思っています。もし私が死んでしまったら、誰も私を探してくれないと分かっているのに、生きている意味なんてあるのでしょうか?生き続ける理由を探していますが、探しても見つかるのは限られたものばかりです。セラピーも効果がありません。友達は多少助けになってくれますが、それでも考えてしまいます。もし私が死んでしまったらどうなるのだろう?誰か私を恋しく思ってくれるだろうか?気にかけてくれるだろうか?気づいてくれるだろうか?私がもう二度と連絡を取らなくなったと思われてしまうのだろうか?

.どうせ負けると分かっているのに、なぜ私たちは戦い続けるのだろう?人生は辛い。自分の人生に価値がないのに、戦い続けることにうんざりしている。他人のことを自分より優先するのは、そうすることで誰かの役に立っていると感じられるからだ。毎食後、吐こうとするけれど、何も起こらない。睡眠薬を飲むとき、毎晩ボトルを全部飲み干さなかったことを後悔することがある。

some songs just give me anxiety, some things just do, some people. Some popele are bad for me, im bad for some. I do fucked up things, i cant take back. My dad is right. no matter what poeple think, its true. im manulative, im controlling, im obessive, attention seeking. some people see it, others dont. everythgin i do has a reason, weather its a defecne, or not. ill stilll be bad for some pople. im thanfull thes… Read more

When will the world stop spinning? When will it all be real? There's a difference between nightmares and dreams, but nothing is how it seems.. ‘In a different world, one that's smaller, one without color. Invisible, I am. No matter where I go, I lie at home, all alone. I sleep to dream. When will it end? I cry out. No response. The voices fall silent. So, so will I. I know I'll get high and try to die. The voices fall silent. So, so will I.