Suicide Prevention in Health Class

oh fun

Oh. Amazing.

Hey mom and lilz

I have church tonight so i braided my hair so it can look pretty when i unbraid it

yayayayay

yay!

I have a youth rally on friday that im excited for

its just sad that Katina isn't going, i enjoy her company.

Cool!

Oh :/

yeah

I’m so bored

this part of the class is making me mad

its saying like

"if your freind is doing blank that might be a sign of depression or sucidial thoughts what do you do

-tell a mutal freind

-talk to them about their feelings

-tell a school counslar

-ect

and the fucking answer was to tell a school counslar

talk to them first

fucking dimbo

Oh ewe

genunily

no ones going to be your freind if you go and tell someone each time your worried

if you talk to them and cant get through or if they say they are going to hurt themseslves and you truly feel you cant stop them

thats when you tell

Yea.

Then you’ll just be called a tattle tale and nobodies gonna like you.

I hate how this is one of the right answers

"Oh you have to tools to kys! Your fucking sucialda lets throw you in the coo co bock

cox"

box*

holy sped

It’s ok lmao

I miss Noah so much :/

Oh im sorry :<

ill brb

And going there never even really helps!

It helped me

but when i was there

once i came back home it all just came back to me and started over

Yea that’s what I mean.

I mean truly

the point of those places are to keep you safe

so if you dont hurt yourself

they realise you

or if they feel you wont when you leave

they realise you

Yea, but they can’t really do anything after you get home.

i agree

i mean sometimes they do at home prgorams or set you up with a therapist

Yea.

But it’s so easy to pretend at those.

in a few mintues i have to give my dog a bath

it is

i never pretended because i wanted to stay

my longest stay was 40 days exactly

i still regret coming home

I know it was.

yeah

and I think that was the best place for you. Mainly because of him.

suicide prevention shouldnt be like

i agree

"sometimes wrong with you lets put you away or force you to talk to someone you dont know"

it should be

"what can we do to help, what do you need, do you WANT therapy"

because if you really cared it would be the second one

EXACTLY!

if it was a problem in your way it would be the first one

so many parents and gurdians juse see it as a problem

I love the parents who start kids with therpay young, not the ones that do it because they think something is wrong with the kid, but so they do have someone to talk to. So that if there is aproblem your comfertable, to help grow.

i hate the parents who throw their kids in therpay the second something is worng that they dont feel like dealing with

like there have been times when i was dating emily i asked to go see her

My parents don’t start me in therapy till I was 11

and my dad told me to talk to my therpaist about it

expecting her to say no

even when its not her decsion

THEN THEY STARTED MY BROTHERS WHEN THEY WERE 8-9.

you paretns dont deserve you

Probably not

But they’re getting better.

Mainly my mom.

thats good

My dad sometimes yells but it’s mostly not at me.

my dad has a bunch of pent up anger but takes it all out on me

Because I’ve learned how to keep them happy.

i have that same thing

I know dear.

if you pretend so will they

Exactly

its a horrible toxic loop

The main way I can keep my dad happy is sports.

And my mom is just happy with whatever I choose.

mine is by pretending to be hapy and over working myself in every area

thats good

That’s why I her.

my mom dosent care about me no matter what I do

Work yourself to be better, just don’t hurt yourself with the work

if i dont hurt myself with the work im not doing enough

If you hurt yourself with work your doing to much.

Its a loop lilly.

if i hurt ymself with the work im doing to much but if im not doing to much im not doing enough

and if im nto doing enough do more

and if i do more im hurting myself with the work

I know.. I’ve been through this.

Just, work for what you want. But do not purposely hurt yourself in the process

i wish i could take away your pain and suffer for you

You don’t need anymore.

But I promise, it’s getting way better.

ok..