My Realization and Truth About Being a Lesbian

Everyone, a while ago i told Mal and comso and a few poeple i was lesbian. Cosmo told me im not, because I've dated men before. So because of that i thought maybe i had to like men, and i forced myself to. So i kept dating guys. Now, its weird, thinking of being with a guy just makes me sick in a way I can't understand. It donset sound appealing, i just... dont want it. I dont find attraction, or love to any of them anymore. But girls i do, i thought maybe i wasnt ready to be with someone, but i liked a girl called niomi, and now another girl. It wasnt that, its just men. I dont really find them attractive anymore. And ive never liked the thought of dick. Anyways, most lesbians date guys in their past, or try out diffrent things before they come to an understanding of what they are. I thought i had to like guys, because of what so many poeple were telling me. I'm honestly scared to say this, and I don't know why. Every time i think about the furutre, or to hold someone, i want to hold a girl, i want to love a girl. Only a girl. Please don't tell me otherwise because it's not your decision to make, but I don't like men. Maybe that could change in the future, but that's unlikely. Im sorry if this upsets you, or if you think my past can determine my future, but once again, its not your descion to make. I love you all, and thank you alll for being supportive as you've come.