Just saying hi

mal

mallll

mal

what the freak

hiiiii

hiii

ohmg

can u do me a favor

do u have discord

no i dont

freak

insta?

yeah

wait wait can u message aiden

nd tell him to get on coroom

mhm i js need his info

bccc I got my phone taken

okoko

wait just go to my page and then my follower

s

my @ is

amyy_3423

and his is garchita

okok enough about him

kk

hihihihih I missed u sm

how have u been?????

man this site is so dead

wait i dont see him

i been okkkk hbuuu

what the freak

check my following

i did

wait my following or my followers

both

hmmm that's weird

we both follow each other

hmm

maybe js search up garchita

@

and his is the pfp with

like the Garfield chainsaw man thingie

I'm soso glad

I was so worried abt u

its not popping uppp

is his acc private??

wait it is

but like it would still show up

yeah im rlly confused

ohhhh wait wait sometimes he deletes insta so he can focus on school and stuff

ohhhhh

freakkkk

awee

I wanna talk to him but I literally don't know any other way

nooo

I couldn't get on wje for like

a month

it kept saying

damnnn

site not found

or some sort of error

wtffff

thats so weird

I think my school blocked it for a while

ohhhh prolly

and now its like unblocked for some reason

anhywanyway

wait maybe I can find his number and u can text him

gimmie a se

c

kk

gonna kms I cant find it </3333

noooooo

wait can u contact Eli in any way

no

</3

ok wtvvv

anyway I hope ur doing super duper well

thanks girll

hru doingg

Hawwo

Erm

wrm

Worm?

yes

worm

🪱

cosmo i got 3rd in mario kart

You may have gotten third in mario kart, but you’re first in my life

ah yes, 4 days late.

Sup

I’m her lover

What else is required?

but.. who are you.

He's this guy

oh noo

Oh yeah totally

Lavi moshe Zohar Berko

Wow

oh

Um who did you think i was?

i dont know..

i dont know anyone

right now

becasue

i forgot everything

right away

Huh?

Dementia

Oh Cosmo she out of it rn

Wait like actually?

Shit

Mal isn’t on now but I put a msg in my doc with her

I can’t get on bit for a lil but I’ll get on in a bit more than an hour

She doing a lil better rn

Ok

Anything else?

Like

When did it start

Hallo

Wsp

Nothing, im a little bit dead but pretty okay, you?

im back now

im oki!

Ok

Just a bad episode?

Yk that I worry about you deeply

i may or may not have put myself in that state where i lose touch with reailty..

Sup

This thing again? Lol

Didn't u and dom do it?

Don't u need another person to like pull u back in?

And didn't u say everything was like purple or smth

How r yall?

Good

U?

no

that was a fake game

Pretty okay but a little bit dead

Ooo

How did u do it this tome

Time

Ohh shit u alr?

I get it. You can’t stop it and it happens

It’s not your fault

Yeah, I helped at training the kids, and I was allowed to kick them :)

Then they chased me ._.

Nice

Lmao

Hope the flower Shop has open tomorrow

Lol

Lol

i put myself there

Oh

Dang

...

What r yall doing?

Nun much

please dont be mad

I’m not mad

okay..

We all make mistakes

i was just rlly upset

and wanted to escape..

We do dumb things sometimes

ok..

i just dindt get high

i wanted that'

but instead i forced ymself into that state

Off what?

where everything feel slike a dream

it makes me forget everything

Wait, how do you even put yourself there?

well first.

i make myself tired, or sad.

then i just laser focous on something

like zone out

for a long time

and think about the man who shows up

when i unwillingly go into that state

and after a while, i focous, everything gets blurry, and it slike i summon him.

Wdym man who shows up?

i tlak to him for a little bit

this man shows up

in that state

hes like my guaridan \

he chooses what i rember and forget

he controls what oi do

someitmes its worse than othets

It’s you who chooses

well yeah

but i feel under his control if fully in this state

and i never fully go into this state if i put myself there.

You gotta try to control yourself in that state whenever it happens

i know.

Are there like features to the man?

yes

hes tall

Does he remind you of anyone that you know?

no i dont think so/

Huh

i cant think of anyone

This isn’t me criticizing it but I’m genuinely rlly interested in this

i know.

thats why im telling you

he tells me things like if i listen to him he can make me safe

and help me

Does it ever happen without you intending it to happen

yes

thats when i fully go into the state.

where i dont rember what happend after im out of it.

Are there any triggers that cause it, outside of frustration or sadness?

sometimes when im really upset.

like sad.

sometimes it happens randomly, mostly when im just rlly sad

Have you ever had rlly bad experiences from it?

yes.

the time parker told his gf about it, i dont rember it.

Oh

Do you have a medical diagnosis for it or no

no ma'am.

Huh

i dont talk to people about this, im scared to get hosptiaclzized.

so they dont even know

It’s not going to get you hospitalized. If they do, however, it will only be for observation

its happend ONCE at a hospital.

no twice.

Oh

Damn

Do you remember what the man told you to do then?

no.

i dont rember anything.

i rember waking up the next morning and my hair was thinner.

Have you ever gone into a partial state and done things like that?

ive def cut and od'd outside of it.

Ik that

like the time with the zinc pills

yeah.

those pills tatsted so bad.

Have you ever tried to go to the dream state in a positive mood?

no, i do it when im sad.

I’m not trying to get you to do it

to escape.

i know i know

My theory is that when you go into that state your mind blocks out all sorts of things and is trying to aggravate its thoughts and get rid of all boundaries. If you’re in a bad enough state your suicidal thoughts could get hold of you

yeah..

explain the man.

i mean hes been here in diffrent forms sence i was 5.

like

i cacnt explain it.

I believe your mind is just in a strange psychosis where it just goes batshit crazy and to attempt to hold a connection to reality it generates the entity

oh.

I used ai to attempt to give you a diagnosis and it gave me dissaciative identity disorder

wait shit.

i think i might have that.

like act.

i have something that souded like that

DID?

i dont htink it was that

Or are you talking about bipolar disporder?

noo i dont have bipolar, i found that out.

they didnt diagnose me with it, they js give me meds for it, for "mood stablization"

What r yall talking abt?

my issues

Ye

ill ask my case manger my diagnoisses

I think they might think that you have just normal psychosis

...

what

no

i dont want that.

isnt that like, bad?

Does he know about your dream states?

she* and no

i dont tell her.

It’s neither bad nor good

im scared to get hosptialized

You should

It’ll help a lot

will she tell my dad?

If you ask it to be medically confidential they should respect that.

oh..

i dont want her to get upset because of me not telling her

She’ll be understanding

idk its scary

It’s for your health

its been less recent sense they put me on the new med.

That means your new meds are tuning it down

You should also tell her that

so maybe i just

wait a little bit and see if it goes away?

cause the only reason it was here today is cause i brought it

You should tell her about ur dream states and that the meds have been toning it down

The sooner you tell her the easier it will be for her to help you. And by saying that the meds are helping you it will be unlikely that they tell your dad

scary..

ill think about it..

don't think

just do

i cant promise i will

I understand that

ok..

Gtg, good night yall

gn

Okii!!

Good

Off now, good night

Ttyl!!

Sleep well.

Ok…

mals on yayyy

they apparently taste like pork

oh i dont like prok

I don't eat pork

becase your jewish

yeah

and also its insanely disguisting

ohh

yeh

im watching hazbin hotel

cool

TADC EP 7 COMES OUT IN LIKE 15 MINS

DADDY

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Heu

Hru

Rlly happy with mal

yayasyay

Yup yup yup