Expressing Distress

im sorry love

no mal not that.

well yeah that

but

..

... (:

thats not good..

i know

oh

im sorry mal

i see

i dont ever want to feel this way again

mm

im sorry.

idk what to say

i really hope you not mad at me.

im not mad

ok..

mal its like

the pain is suffacting

and

i cant breathe

it physcially hurts my chest.

but.

i like the pain

because.. its all i feel i have left

i need this pain

but i also just wish i was hapy

i see

i kinda feel like i deserve it

and the comofrt is because im finally getting what i deserve

i feel like im drowning, and im so ready to stop fighting to swim

and just fall under the water

you dont deserve it

it feels so wrong for yoou to sayt it

why

because ive heard it so much

im not sure how i feel about it

i see

…

no youve suffered more than enough

well

its fine

no its not.

i love you mal

i love you too

i just cme back form like

hm?

ohh

it happend

oh

?

nufin

mk

guess its already been dealt with so oh well

i js

I faded out again]

oh

im sorry

hell no

you've suffered enough to last a lifetime

over a lifetime, rlly

you need some peace for once

...

im sorry

why are you sorry?

lifes the thing that fucked you up

idk..

i js feel like i did smthin wrong

you didn't

i assure you

emily was the one who didn't try to listen to you

she's the one that was unfaithful

hehehe

emily*

are yu tired dad?

yes

went skiing and im pretty exhausted

and it was a long drive back home

oh i see

you should get sleep

eh im fine

ill be stayin up late

idrc

i still got enough energy

oki!!

lol

so wyd?

uh-

school work

yu?

tryin to do schoolwork

ohh

i see

sorry im taking forever to repyl

all good

im just used to you taking forever

...

es cause we barley talk anymore..

i got a lot of shit always goin on

im not slow. why you sayin its fine to be slow

i know.

yeah but when i go to school tmrw, ill be able to get on through the bus n stuff

or when im sneakin on my computer

im forcing myself to be on lightmode so it doesnt look suspicious

ok.

oof

yep

its fine cosmo

lmao

i get you got shit going on.

eh

srry.

i kinda had covid fuck up my ability to follow through with motivations so idrc

and also adhd

oh

its fun

ok.

gotta love never even having an actual graduation since preschool

...

nvm im leaveing

girl

literally its only cuz i got her number that i talk to her more

and now i lost me phone

k.

literally shes jus a friend

i know

im not dumb

right

but seriously theres no reason for this envy

uh huh.

you think i wanna be jelous?

at how close yall are

how much yk about eachother

how many inside jokes

and rlly she's talkin more to jomoki more so i've been giving them more space

we don't rlly use many anymore

not the point.

ik

i don't know that much about her rlly

k

im js mad

rn

i understand

and small issues in my head are getting bigger

anxiety

honestly i don't want to know all the things ik about her that i do

honestly

seriously

i wish you cared enough to talk ot me likwe used to.

what?

i actually care more about you now

ik you care

im not stupid

rmeber that night i did smthin and you where telling me to yell for my dad cause i was abt to pass out?

when we called

yeah

ok.

i remember almost everything that happened to you

well im sorry i do so much shit

the good things too

like what.

like that time we collabed on a book

i could tell you enjoyed it a lot

i was really bad.

you've improved

a lot

i also suck at writing

i kinda found that some other time and was on it while at my granpdarents as an excuse to be on my chreombook

you where better than i was

HEY

?

stop distracting me im tryna be mad

too bad

:P

lmao

get distracted mwahaha

fuck you cosmo

uh

we never call anymore

im not milfing with you

...

NO MOANING

omg lmao that was hilarious

...

bahahaha

i used to moan on here

yeah

a lot

and i think it was you who made me switch to my other acc that had rules

i think it might've been some other people

but ig i did lmao

alastor

oh yeahhh

i remember him

he was chill

i miss him lots sometimes

i js miss you cosmo.

im not mad

i js fucking miss you

i understand

i also miss callin you too

and rlly all the funny moments you've done

Like what?

the moanng

and im really fucking scared for next year.. or when you graduate

you kinda just being you rlly

i havent been me in so long

its fine

you've always been you

its not.. parker and me where talking and he was tellling me abt how he and yu and mal where all gonna leave soon cause your old

maybe i js chnaged

im not planning on leaving but you're stronger now

no

i dont wanna lose you

im not sure myself

huh?

i prolly wont be on as much but i will pop in

...

you barely on now

ik

its tough for me too

i try to be on as much as possible tho

you're not gonna lose me

promise?

promise

anyways gotta dip for the night

ok

goodnight

(aka till my dad goes to sleep)

loser

oh my lord

hi mal!

hii

i need an opion

opinion?

how old dose he look?

uh 17

like

15

alr

maybe 16

ok]

he js dmd me and im being a good child >:)

yeah 16

uh back off

n

i

g

huh?

eria

wdym back off?

somethin about him feels a lil off

(n wordddddd)

guys i have 222 notifs thats so satisfying

racist mf

realllll

because hes black??

nah

sloppy fit

get unsatisfied

jus the appearance

nope you racist

you said real

realllls

i mean maybe he was dressing for comfort

like instagram real

reel

no

you woulda spelled it reel

since youre a stickler for spelling

uh im like dylsexic

uh

no

dman it

dnma ti

uh

11:11 make a wish

its 9:11 for me (:

i wish for a new set

of legos

nerd

lol

he called me chubby :<

tyty

uh

well i showed him my face

...

and he said he was guessing i was kinda chubby

i feel sad now

don't be sad

be happy

uh

hahah i feel better now cuase i showed him my body (clothed ofc) and he said

...

:'"Damn ngl you are so fucking hot ngl"

i love highering my self esteem

uh yeah he gon ask for nudes

and i will say no

bad dog

call him a bad dog if he gets freaky

yes i will!!

lmaoo

and then tell him that you're about to send a dick pic

bdr

?

huh?

what does that even mean

big dick randy dumbass

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bdj?

big dick jomoki?

he uh

uh

wut

js said hed kiss my neck rn

mk

😋

do i call him bad dog now

.

yes

and then starting acting like a maniac

like

rlly rlly gay

noo im giving him another chnace

a wanring

no

yes

tell him you finna whip out your dick

i tell him dont be weird to be me

say

"if you gonna be weird imma whip out my dick"

"deadass"

eughh

mk mal ill let you cook

do i have to

"ts finna be the hunkiest meat you ever seen so you better calm down"

BAHAHHAHAA

say all that

do i have to :<

yes

ion wanna get banned!!

say "its throbbing and needs someone to releive it"

itll make me laugh very hard

"ts hunky meat aint ever seen a black guy before"

after you send all those, report him for being sexual

girl

i uh

ima js block him..

noooo

...

ok just send somethin not as crazy

"if you kiss my neck ill hang you with my schlong"

go with "bad dog"

😭

go kiss some bitch while she eats kibble

"if your lips touch my neck its only fair my tip touches yours"

were way past the neck thing

...

say it

it even rhymes

you tell him this

https://www.chatogo.com/free-chat-rooms/

BRO

girllll

do mine

BAHAHHAAH