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A Final Confession of Love and Regret

I was young. Why did you have to do that? My dearest friend. you said it was fine, so why does it hurt to think of you. I scratch, bite and beg for things to go back. but my doings ruined us. I must admit that we were an amazing duo. maybe even more but just know. If I were on my deathbed. my last words would be "I love you."

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god how i crave you once again

god how i wish you were here against me once more

come back once more and I will do anything for you

I will kill for you, I will cry for you, I will harm for you, I will die for you.

I will do anything if just once final farewell

before you disappeared with the pills

its like your a forgotten memory

your someone i want to forget

but yet i cant bring myself to

they will never fill the void like you did

the words we whispered

the stolen kisses that left my lips a mess

the ways you made me laugh and feel

now just for you to be gone once more

a ghost i've never forgotten

a ghost i will forever love

a ghost i want and need back

i will wait as long as you take

just don't take long my friend

i wont disappoint you. I swear.

I wont cry, i wont hurt.

days growing like weeds in a old house

i already loved you too much

i have to grow more and more obsessed

but someone is waiting for me now.

I can't latch onto you for much longer

but i will hold on as long as i can

just to get that feeling of your cold but accepting presence

to get that small noise of your voice

the same voice i listened to on that day

then it disappeared after the pill

now i have to take them daily

i still catch you staring

only in the corner of my vision

i see you in darkness when i wake up from something terrifying

i see your eyes everywhere i look sometimes

i see you in the reflection behind e

i caught you staring last night when i woke up gasping for air

your own eyes were filled with fear

everything seems different without you

i will wait until my skeleton turns into ash and dust

just to see you once more

i never cared what they said

never opened up about you to anyone

yet i had a dream about you

i remember ever so faintly of your presence

im sorry for making you do that

i fucked up so very horribly

i dont see myself in the mirror the same way.

the look of disgust haunts me

you haunt me like a ghost

your emotion unwavering

your stare colder than your body

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it is just things i have been thinking about