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I'm thinking about killing myself. No beacause I want to die, not because my life is "horrible." but beacause it would just be easier. I've hurt everyone I've crossed at least once. My dad wouldn't have to yell anymore. My therapist and friends wouldn't worry. My war would be over. I wouldn't hurt anyone else. There would be peace with my leaving. Maybe it would hurt people, but maybe it's give them time to stop worrying, to heal. It's not like "I'm going to do it," and it's not me having a mental breakdown I feel calm I just feel Life would be easier without me. I fear I already know the answers I'm going to get to this. But i do truly believe, it would be easier without me.

The poem I wrote for ELA

Why Me? --------------- You always said that cheating was on your bucket list But i guess that part was missed I still got with you I never knew what you were gonna do

What you did was worst than cheating You slid your hand down Telling me that it was by habit I left with tears in my eyes And on my face was a frown

I bet you never thought about it But everynight i still feel your hands on me It happened two years ago But i still live with the thought of it

I spend hours trying to wash off the feeling But i guess its never leaving I know that i should be mad at you But somehow i still find ways to forgive you

what do yall know what raynauds is???? i have it hehe :) its not necasserily a good thing tho coz i hate it lolz thats why my ankle wont heal

Yall need jesus jesus is good. he dose great he will save you. he will heal you. he wll get rid of depression. he can do the impossible. Hes amazing. A frw months ago i was stealing money i was stealing and hideing electonics i was sneaking out i was lying but just tody i got baptized, god changed me. i stopped self harm i stopped lying i stopped cheating. all my bad went away. all because of him, God is amazing. How… Read more

Dear Worst Jokes Ever,

I sit here with a heavy heart, tears streaming down my face, as I write this farewell letter to you. Our time spent together has brought both laughter and despair, but alas, it is time for me to bid you adieu.

From the moment I stumbled upon your twisted humor, I thought I had found my home, a sanctuary for those who appreciate the darkest corners of comedy. Oh, how we laughed, or rather, how… Read more

GENESIS 20 Abraham and Abimelek 1Now Abraham moved on from there into the region of the Negev and lived between Kadesh and Shur. For a while he stayed in Gerar, 2and there Abraham said of his wife Sarah, “She is my sister.” Then Abimelek king of Gerar sent for Sarah and took her. 3But God came to Abimelek in a dream one night and said to him, “You are as good as dead because of the woman you have taken; she is a marr… Read more