i like am scared to be attacthed to anyone in anyway and im like pushing away from everyone else and i just feel like worse than i ever have and i dindt know i could hurt this bad
well, he just started never texting me, said hed do thigns and see me never did, never gave proof of age, every time i pointed anyhting out i got "im not forcing you to be with me"
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OPALLLLL
opal 😿
heyyyy is cosmo actually gay ðŸ˜
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no
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alr sorry i was diong smthin
opal 😿
it ok
opal 😿
hru
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im.. ok
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ever sense alain and i broke up things have been horrible
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i like am scared to be attacthed to anyone in anyway and im like pushing away from everyone else and i just feel like worse than i ever have and i dindt know i could hurt this bad
opal 😿
wait why did yall break up
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well, he just started never texting me, said hed do thigns and see me never did, never gave proof of age, every time i pointed anyhting out i got "im not forcing you to be with me"
opal 😿
oh weird wtf
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yeah..
opal 😿
men ain’t shit girl
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i guess lol
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but still
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its just, i feel so fuckng hopless, like im stuck in this empty pit and i just
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cant escape
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i hate being tocuhed, i keep falling into verbal shutdowns, i just hate most people
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i cant do anyhting i used to do
opal 😿
that’s how i felt during all my breakups too and you have to remember there’s someone out there 100% better than them
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i cant eat even
opal 😿
me neither ðŸ˜
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yeah but right now
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i dont want anyone
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cause im just ocnvicned everyones going to leave
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because
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alain left, parker left, arcus kept elaving, same with rose, so amny people just left.
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niomi left
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and then rui had a heart attack
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another freind has cancer
opal 😿
the right persons not gonna leave and it doesn’t even have to be a partner, it can be a friend
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i suppouse
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i even hate church now
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i just see all the flaws, the holes in this religon
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that if i did everything i was fucking supposued to , but it still wanst enough to even get happiness.
iheartmyself
Yes
opal 😿
yeah well fuck religion
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cause i had what was the best thing fucking torn from me
opal 😿
it’s not real
iheartmyself
He's gay
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i hate my church rn
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like
opal 😿
i hate religion sm
iheartmyself
Awww
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i asked to go to youth camp
opal 😿
NO FUCKJNG WAY LMAO
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i got told im not ready for it
opal 😿
why
iheartmyself
Idk I like making shit up
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i dont dress correctly (i didnt dress right once)
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and
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idk
iheartmyself
Wear bikini
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they think it would be to hard for me
iheartmyself
Fuck the rules
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but someone who donset do anyhting hes meant to
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like
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gets to go?
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and its so stupid
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i get told god loves me no matter what
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but then i cant see he loves me until i give myself to him DAILY
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proof nothing is fucking enough
opal 😿
yeah cuz society is a bitch
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everything is just so flawed
opal 😿
and everyone sucks
iheartmyself
Yesss fuck the men
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and that church aint doing anyhting for me
iheartmyself
This is why I kiss girls
opal 😿
then leave it
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i would
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Rude
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ima start slowly not going
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and omfg
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I used to stick up for u :(
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i went into a verbal shutdown at church morning service
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and then at evneing service
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i asekd the pastors wife to not touch me
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and she got upset, saying i was mad
opal 😿
ELI OMG IS THAG YOU
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and then apprenlty she told my freind to convince me to not be mad
opal 😿
sorry i mean SOME people
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like abotu something that wasnt her fucking buisness
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Waddup opal
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and they said i was disprescptful, ebcause i dindt want to play a game. i got hit with the "You have to listen to me, im your elder"
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so i was forced to play a fuckass game
opal 😿
bruh
opal 😿
not much hru
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if i listend to all my elders, id be fucking in human trafficking rn
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and if god is real, he obvously stopped caring
opal 😿
god ain’t real bruh
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and someone at the chruch said satan has to get permission from god before doing anyhting, so god just let this shti happen
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like this shit if so fucking stupid
opal 😿
genuinely bruh
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its just amazing how one person brought me to this point though
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it also makes me so mad that the pastors wife and everyone at the church is like "your not your joyfull self" and then blmaes it on my mom
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and says like i shuld look forward to going to chruch
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why would i look forward to a fucking seech based off a book made by poeople on fucking drugs?
iheartmyself
I have a question
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hm?
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wsp babe
iheartmyself
Aren't pastors not allowed to have wives
iheartmyself
Or do I js sound stupid
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depedns on the relgion love
iheartmyself
And do U hate me
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no ofc not
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not knowing dosent make you stupid
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some relgions pastors cant have wives
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Bored
iheartmyself
So my arish jokes aren't that bad
iheartmyself
Ohh
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no its really annoying
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but i dont hate you
iheartmyself
Lmaoooo it's a huge inside joke
iheartmyself
I've never spoken to arish
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well, keep it inside
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your freinds are also really annyoing on here
iheartmyself
I wasn't even at school I didn't even know lmaooo
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its okay love
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no </3
iheartmyself
Shame
iheartmyself
U should get it
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im sorryyy
iheartmyself
Js get it
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on school cmp
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What did you say
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she asked if i have tiktok
iheartmyself
Ur at school
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no
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im on a school comptuer
iheartmyself
It's soooo late
iheartmyself
Ohh
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its not even noon for me
iheartmyself
Damn
iheartmyself
It's 1am here
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girlll
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you need sleep
iheartmyself
I canttr
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whyy?
iheartmyself
I don't wanna
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mm whats the deleted commet
iheartmyself
Nothingfgg
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okay love
iheartmyself
I did my nails so I can't do shit
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Can you finally show me wyll bbg :c
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you can be pillow princess then
iheartmyself
Not on here
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eughh uhh...
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can you join my btirx
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or i can make a new reddti acc again for the 594389 time
iheartmyself
WHOOPS
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ooohhhhhh
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okay
iheartmyself
Forgot to despatch that
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your so silly
iheartmyself
Deattach
iheartmyself
Yes I'm hot ik that
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yes you aree
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i ain hot </3
iheartmyself
What's that
iheartmyself
No one said that
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it means ill do all the work ml (;
iheartmyself
Wdymm
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i meann
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i can tag you on a joke
iheartmyself
Tag me
iheartmyself
Wait I don't get this site
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ok
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go to notifations
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and you should see me tagging you
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saying @ then your username
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Let’s not talk abt this here
iheartmyself
Hmmm
applee
Bro on the day of Arafat is actually crazy ðŸ˜ðŸ˜
applee
Btw hey opal it’s been a really long time