You might've heard of this verse: "Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
Deuteronomy says "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Romans 8:18 says "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God."
Suffering is natural to humanity because of our own sin, but God's will is that the suffering we undergo will lead us to become new and transformed people
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la la la laa
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hello
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i just finished a really good book last night
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thats good whts it abt
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its about this girl getting over her ex who killed himself
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and moving on in life
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and finding his daugheter not knowing he had one
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and then she finds the love of her life
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oh, thats actually sounds interesting
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and reconnects with her dead exes family
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in the start she falls off a building
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everyone thinks she tried to khs because her ex did
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then her exes daughter shows up at her house non day
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and begins to live with her (the charecter is reallt iffy about her
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nd later finds on that will (her ex) didnt even know he had a dughter
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and wills ex, tayna, hates her daughter lilly
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so lousia takes her in
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and then she goes to a grivence group
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because of will
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nd strts hanging out with the ambulance personw ho she re met because his sisters kid went there
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and his siter was dead
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damn
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so then they fall in love
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she thinks its jakes dad
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and hates him for sleeping with her because jake yaps about how his dad uses women
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then sam the ambulance guy gets shot and almost dies
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nd lou realises she loves him
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then lilly gets a new home with her new found grandmother
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and then idk hapy ending blah
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i almost cried when sam almost died
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ts was sad
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its called
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uhm
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after you
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my dad does NOT use women
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not you
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the person in the book
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I know lmao
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jake guess what
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i got lathaiels ip adi
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guess who doesn't care
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me
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jake
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stfu
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dang
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bro idk why but like my bi-polar has been kicking me deep in the stomach lately
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hey, i need some lyirc suggestions
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like suck small things make me mad
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such
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suck
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haha
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and people just annyo me badly
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suck
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my mood swings are off the chars
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guys
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I came up with a fire bar like 2 weeks ago and I forgot
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so bummed
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my dog is having a sezuire
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uh oh
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it happpesn alot
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my grandma's dog used to have this thing where his trachea would collapse
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dang hope he gets better
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especially at night
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oooh
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it was so nice trying to fall asleep listening to this dog choke on himself!
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ok
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oh
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sarcasm
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i took my nighttime meds last night
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and i wanted to thorw up
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yikes
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yeah
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but i think not taking my meds is strting to affect me
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wow
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ya think?
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it's almost as it
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*if
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they were prescribed to you
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for a reason
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wow
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cool
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no my bpd is like acting up
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just bein' real
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😭
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yeah
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cause
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you're supposed to take your medds
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*meds
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idgaf about my meds
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GOSH FUCKING DAMMIT WHY CAN I NOT TYPE WHEN TALKING TO YOU SPECIFICALLY
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hehehehe
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hence why your bpd is acting up
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that can be changed by a combination of cognitive reshaping and supplemental medication
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ill start taking my anti physcotis when i start seeing and hearing shit again
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😭
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im being so fr
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i got hospitalized cause i was hearing things
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😭
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i just genuingly hate taking meds
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and they offerd other things like shots and like shit you put in appleauce and ignored me when i said yeah anything but pills
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LIKE WHY OFFER IT IF YOUR NOT GOING TO GIMMIE IT
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I SAID SHOTS ARE FINE
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fucking autsitic doctor
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the applesauce shit goes crazy I used to take one of those when I was a wee little lad
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look where that's gotten you
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i usually take meds jake
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every pill they said take i took.
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pills only go so far
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if you believe you're broken then you can't be fixed
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i dont belive im broke
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they could give you a placebo and if you had the right mindset it would work
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same goes the other way
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i just am done taking pills
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why
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because every time i take even a small one i go into a panic attack
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witch has been recently senign me into manic episodes
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le sign
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every time i take one i fel like i over dosed ahh over again
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im shakey i wanna throw up
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its not fucking fun
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i asked for anything BUT PILLS
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but they gave me fucking pills
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so im done taking them
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you should really work with a GOOD therapist to help you see things in a new way and make gradual changes to improve your overall well-being
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i have a good therapist
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and i just got her too
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good
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listen to what she says
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be honest
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fully transparent
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and don't hold on to any negative ideas or habits
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true change and success requires sacrifice
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k
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no like
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im being genuine
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keep that in mind
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I was super against therapy and stuff till my parents dumped me into an intensive program for my OCD a few years ago
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And thankfully I worked with a really good therapist who helped me to be accepting of change
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my parents are trying to put me into a certain therapy
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which I hated
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the best thing I did was to let it go and trust her
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EMDR therapy
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And let go of my own thought patterns and be open to new things
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witch is for trauma but i dont need it
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because i dont have truama
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trauma comes in a lot of different forms
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i dont have trauma.
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i found this place to tlak
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pretty sure EMDR is for people who've repressed their trauma and need to reprocess
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LMFAO THIS IS NOT A SITE FOR THERAPY
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This is probably the WORST place to look for therapy
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thats not what i mean
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There's a very certain type of people who find websites like this
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lovely perv introduced me to this site first off
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second i dont mean therapy
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thris im not talking abt this site
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i mean i was going through google and i found like a thingy
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ok well given the context and wording
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anyway
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still not a good idea
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you invite people too it
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you should stay with professional, licensed people who can ACTUALLY help you
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and i dont mean for therapy
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i mean to invite freinds too and talk to them
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in either priv or public msg
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I. Dont. Have. Trauma.
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"...a series of related events that disrupt a person's sense of safety, security, and well-being."
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"well-being"
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I dont have fucking trauma jake
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i appricate you trying to help. okay.
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but i dont have it.
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i can act out and it dosent mean i have trauma
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You're stubborn huh
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No.
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Trauma doesn't have to mean like you watched someone die or idk got shot or smth
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i just know i dont have trauma
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it can be mild
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regardless
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i dont have any
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none at all
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nothing ever happend in my life
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ever
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i dont need stupid fucking
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clearly some series of events has led to the gradual deterioration of your well-being
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EMDR
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whether you realize it or not
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idc what lead to what
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idc what i am
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that's what therapy is for
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and idc about anyhting
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they help you understand that
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and fix it
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i.
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dont
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care
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i dont care i dont care
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i dont fucking care
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and that's why you won't get better
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idc
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idc idc idc
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idc if i get better
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idc anyhting
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im perfectly fine how i am
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¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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and everyone needs to leave me be.
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i dont have trauma
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and idc what happens to me
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charlie what are you rambling for
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you can't convince yourself by repeating things
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it's okay to not be okay
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Im fine.
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are you?
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Yes.
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be honest with yourself
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i dont have truauma, and im perfectly fine iwht my life,
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are you REALLY happy with the way things are?
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and people need to stop tryna fix me.
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Do you REALLY want to live the rest of your life like this?
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like what
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the way you're living now
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with resritcons
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weren't you going to commit suicide not long ago?
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I wouldn't say that's fine
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did i do it
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?
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No, but the fact that you were considering it demonstrates that you aren't as fine as you say you are
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And I promise you that's okay
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nobody's perfect, no life is untouched by pain
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That doesn't mean there isn't hope for you though
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You just have to reach for it
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I know it can be scary or embarrassing or whatever to feel like you need help
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Im fine.
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Believe me, I'm well familiar with that
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But you can't keep living like this
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You have a purpose beyond this
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My life is fine.
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You can't convince me just by saying that
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Ill leave this shit household and ill be fine.
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No, you won't
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You'll be stuck in the same misery
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Because you don't know how to solve the problems
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Because you ignore them, and deny them
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And refuse to accept help
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I thought the same way
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Guess what
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It's not true
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Jake.
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It's lying to yourself whether you know it or not
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I dont have trauma.
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Take the help while it's easy
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I don't care if you don't have trauma
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Regardless of that, you're not fine
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Everything you do concerns me greatly and I'm done pretending it's alright
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I'm very worried for the way things are heading for you
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If you don't start making changes at your own volition
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Whats going to happen jake.
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Not what you think
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nothing has ever happend to me.
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nothing ever will.
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Charlie look at the way you are
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How you act
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How you see things
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There's a reason you have medication and suicidal thoughts
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I don't want that to continue for you
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But if you pretend it's all okay it's just going to get worse and worse
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Take it from someone who did the same thing
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It doesn't get better until you get vulnerable
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Im not vulnerable.
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Exactly my point
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Im not letting anyone else in.
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Im not letting anything else hurt me.
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So im fine.
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Do you see what I'm saying?
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No.
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I know it's hard and scary
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Im not scared.
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But there are people who genuinely want to help you
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Then why won't you let anyone in?
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Because.
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Im enough for myself.
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Fuck being honest with anyone.
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Be honest with yourself then
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Take a deep, inward look at yourself
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And tell me you want to keep living like this
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Or that you want it to keep getting worse
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Do you want that, Charlie?
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why are you trying to help me.
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im hopeless.
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You're absolutely not hopeless
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I KNOW you're not hopeless
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I'm trying to help you because I care about you and don't want to see you continue hurting yourself
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Are you religious at all, Charlie?
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i try to be, but im bad at it
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It's okay, nobody's perfect
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You might've heard of this verse: "Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
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It's from the book of Isaiah
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Deuteronomy says "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
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Look at that last part
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thats a lie
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He will never leave you, nor forsake you
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thats a fucking lie
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God is incapable of lying
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thats a stupid fucking lie
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THATS A LIE JAKE
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Charlie
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Listen to me
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You are NEVER too hopeless for God
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There is not a length to which He will not go to love you
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thats a lie
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It's a promise
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ot even my parents can love me
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Humans are flawed
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God is not
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my mom chose her bf over me and hasnt loved me sence
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Have you heard John 3:16
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proably
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For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.
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yes
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He LOVED the WORLD--that includes you
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So much so
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That He sent his own Son to be brutally killed
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With humanity's sin upon his back
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Just so you could be saved
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YOU, Charlie
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Does that make sense?
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There is no greater love than to lay one's life down for another
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And that was done for you
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Becasue you are loved
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And there is hope for you
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And because God WANTS you to be in a relationship with Him
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Charlie, it's never too late for that
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You could never be too far gone
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im fine.
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Charlie
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I want you to think about what I just told you
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Understand the gravity of that
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Understand that it's truth
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i have flashbacks of the ambulance
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It's okay, Charlie
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jake
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I promise you that you're going to be okay
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jake
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Yes?
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why dosent my mom love me
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I don't know, Charlie, I don't know how all people work
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It's hard to know when someone loves you or not
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Or how much even
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But rest assured, you're loved unconditionally
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You have been from the moment you came into this world
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From before then, even
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As you were delicately crafted within your mother's womb
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i know people will care if i die
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You are loved, and there is nothing that can change that
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and i dont want to ide
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I don't want you to die either
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i just cant care about anyone else
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everything has been spinning sense my mom told me she dindt want me anymore
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i lose everything i had so i never gained anything again
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People make mistakes, Charlie
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Humanity is naturally sinful
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jake i lost the one place that felt like home
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But what people say doesn't change your worth
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Your home is with the Lord
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Not necessarily just in heaven
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But in His presence
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Even here on earth, that is your home
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im scared i might have trauma
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and if i do
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I know, Charlie, it's okay
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my dad wont let me
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unless its completely my fault
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because hes sick of it being anyone elses
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but i couldnt fuck myself up
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like ffs i was in 4th grade
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I'm sorry things are like that, I know it's difficult
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my mom tells me i grew up to fast
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You were exposed to a lot of things you shouldn't have been
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That's not your fault
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i have trauma, dont i.
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I think you do, but it's not as bad as you might think
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There's a lot of things I think have hurt you over time, both directly and indirectly
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But you can certainly move past those things, learn from them, and grow into the person you're destined to be
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It's all a part of God's purpose for your life
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i dont have pontential 2 be anything
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Romans 8:18 says "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God."
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Which sounds like a lot
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But it means that the ways we suffer now aren't even worth comparing to what is to come
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We have to suffer because it's the only way to grow
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Suffering is natural to humanity because of our own sin, but God's will is that the suffering we undergo will lead us to become new and transformed people
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Renewed and freed into His glory
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You are a child of the Most High, the omnipotent creator of the universe
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.
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He who spoke light into existence, who placed the stars in the sky, who filled the oceans and raised the mountains
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He made you too, Charlie
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The greatest of all His creation
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That which He sacrificed everything for
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i dont understand
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why you are the only person
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i listen to
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I'm merely speaking forth the Word of the Lord
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yeah dosent mean i listen to my paster
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Well, it's harder to have a personal connection with a pastor
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But it's the same message
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You are worth loving and caring for in God's eyes, and He intends to do just that
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I'll be back in just a few minutes, I have to switch classes
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ok
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i should prolly get off and focuous on my school work
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im behind
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ill ttyl i go to my moms today so ill be on
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Good idea, best of luck :)
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I'll be praying for you :D
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Thank you, Jake.
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For everything.
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Of course, I hope what I've said will be helpful
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yay!