My daughter

my wonderful amazing augher

daugther

Babes did you eat tody?

And what time did you go to bed?

you need sleep and food

And water, drink water.

um

I’ve missed you too lol

And don’t be worried

I’ve been ok

Yayayay!

I am worried i havent seen you in ages

give me an email to reach you with.

Real

Binxity436@gmail.com

thank you ml

Hove you been? are things okay at home

I’ve been ok

okii

thats good

eating and sleeping enough?

Boys are brats thi

Yea I think idk

i agree

i js got out of a reltionship with someone who was love bombing and cheating on me.

I’ve been obsessing over someone who’s playing me

Who?

And thinking that’s just how he is

David….

Istg is it who i think it is?

OMFG IT IS

im gonna kill him.

Babes hes a fat fuck with a shriveld dick, you dserve better.

how can you let that THING play you.

It’s just that he acts like he likes me and then just ignores me

I’m slowly getting over him tho but it’s hard when I have to see him everyday and have a class with him

i understand,

but hes a pos man

they arent worth it.

yea

But I’m finding out that the man that loves me is the one I’ve been pretending not to love back

Who/

Omaa

omgg

His name is Noah.

Oh?

He’s in a grade under me but the same age *held back* but he’s so sweet and genuine and one of my best friends

awh thats sweet

im glad you deserve good.

He even told me he likes me and is that waiting for me at this point.

ohhh

well atleast hes not being a dick abt it

It just hard to trust men because I’ve been hurt and manipulated by them so much

Yea I get it

I understand that.

Was it on accident?

no

Oh maybe they were just going through something

idk

but its in the past now

Yea. I really hope they happens for you. You deserve someone who loves you

Oh..

I’m trying to figure out how to make something for you

wdym?

i still have things youve made for me in the past.

like the love you to the moon and back ting

I just learned how to crochet and I’m trying to learn how to make something. It might look bad tho

its okay

if its from you ill treaure it forever

I had all the stuff you made me but when our downstairs flooded I lost it all

oh im sorry :<

ill make you more

It’s ok

I got a beared dragon in October

ooh cool

He’s been one of my saviors

awhh hes so cute

whats his name

Pascal

oh

Yea my mom named him…’

…….

(:

its okay.

I heard yall dont have school tdy?

I’ve had to babysit all day and the only thing my brother wants to do is try to break my phobe

Yea it’s stupid

oh tahts dumb

I didn’t even want to go anyway. I used to love school but now I’m just so burnted out after everyday

IT happens when gorwing up.

school will js get worse.

hows emily?

Ik

She’s good.

She’s doing way better then before

Everyone else is starting to hate school and I thinks she’s starting to like it

im really glad

Me too

ever seince she lost her phone i could see her doing better, she looked haltiher.

tottaly im not tottaly not the reason she lost her phone tottaly

Yea totally

lol

was she ever mad abt that?

No,not reallt

she was js like "yeah she stole my phone and got caught with it but its whatever"

Yea

omfg

id be pissed if someone did tht to me

She told me that her and pos are rasing a stupid digital pet together

And she thinks he likes her.

omg, who.

The same things gonna happen to her that happened to me.

David

omfg.

she is NOT allowed to date him.

i will save her.

I’ve been trying trust ne

date her

t/j

/j

I can’t do that. Parents and grandparents are super homophobic

i was kidding ml.

also youve dated woman beforE?

do you js hide it?

Plus I don’t like her or any girl like that anymore

Pretty much

YOUR STRIAHGT>?

Bisexual I think still trying to figure that out

i understnad

im tryna figure shit out o

i think i might be pan

cause ive never really cared abt gneders

And my whole family are like super Christian but I don’t really follow god or anyone.

So real

oof

i feel ya

when i was with my grandparents it was like that

Yea I don’t really believe in that stuff….. I just don’t really follow religion

that makes seince

ill support you no matter what you do or dont choose.

Like ik there’s a creator but it’s just been jammed down my throat so much that I just don’t like it anymore

thats really fucking understandable

Yea

so hows home life?

Its ok. I think my brother is kinda abusive

how so?

how olkd is hse?

old*

He’s 8 and he yells a lot and tries to hit me and has pointed scissors and a knife at me and has also tried to choke me numerous times

He’s the one who’s dating my friend

He always manipulates my parents into giving him whatever he wants

hes 8 and dating someone?

also thats not okay

you need to tell an adult about this, and dont let them excuse it because hes young, it could form bad habits when hes older.

They know

All they do is talk to him about it and then he starts scream crying and then they yell at me to make him calm down

thats really stupid

im sorry love.

I swear he finds joy in watching me suffer

It’s ok

ive never heard good things about your family, i hope you get out of there as soon as you can.

If i have my own place (or my parents might accept if they understand the situation) you can try getting out at 16 and ill provide a home for you.

My house hasn’t always been the best place to live at

The only one who actually loves me in this house is my mom

I’ll be ok until I can leave I just hope my brother grows up

Dw about me. I’m ok❤️

i will worry

your my daughter and i love you.

i will worry even if evertyhing was perfect, cause something may happen in perfect sitatuins

Ik

all you can do is hope, but i mean it , even if i cant provie a home for you, i will find somene trustworthy who can.

if you need anything im here.

okay

?

Ok ❤️

I can’t leave until I’m like 17 ish, I will not let my baby brother go through what I did

So I have to stay until he’s at least 7-8

He needs me… yk?

i understand

if my brother moves in with my dad i wont leave until im 100% sure my dad has chancged or he moved out.

my dad is physcially abusive to me at some point when im anything elss than perfect, and its because im the oldest (that he can do this to and they have to stay) as he did with my sister, dylan will be gone, roman will be all thats left, hes next in line.

Same. I can’t let my brother feel the way I did, defenseless with no one to talk to

you know how i care for him

i understand.

but if they are every physcially abusive i need you to tell someone asap, i know people who can help you.

Thank you ❤️

ofc mll

just reach otu, i emaield you so you have my email.

Are you making those??

uhm

i might one day.

Those sketches are amazing

Thank you.

ive done better lol.'

i have some saved somewhere id have to find them

i dream to make wedding dresses one day

Ur gonna have to design my wedding dress lol

Id love too 1 ^^

the first picture if for the main charcter in my book.

shes named after you

im aslo naiming my first birth daughter after you

i fucking love your name😅

Ur the first to ever think that

I’ve always hated my name

I love it so much.

im keeping it for my child

and one of the mina checters in my book.

I’m attempting to write a book too

Whats it about?

It’s about a princess who is stuck inside this life that is doesn’t want to be in and is trying to escape

I think im gonna name my first daughter may marie or Charlie Marie

🥺

really?

Yes I’ve always loved the names Charlie and may

i hate the name charlie

i like the name may

I love the name Charlie.

But I want them to have one of my middle names

i like that idea

Holy crap

The only thing I can do is play instruments and read lol

these are js my references lol

my real drawings add color and detail

How the hell is that just a reference

I can only draw stick figures and kinda draw eyes

uh

ooh i love drawing eyes

art is better with practice

and thses are refracne because i use pcitures to draw them, so i have an idea

my pictures are all in my head

these are just practice

its not as good as the pictures

I’m not very good at it tho lol

That’s all I can do

it gets better witht time

i used to be rlly fucking bad at it

So real

eugh im tired

Same

I js can’t sleep

I have insomnia so that’s fun

ohh

i wasnt up very late i was up till lik 11

I went to bed like 9:30 but didn’t fall asleep till like 1:00-2:30 ish

oh

that sucks

i overlsleep so im always tiree

but lately i havent been so thats good

Yea definitely

should i draw a ball gown dress

YESSS

lemme asdd detial to it lol

Okkk

should i color it or should i shade it?

Just shading

oki

then itll be done soon

done =D

OMG THATS FANTASTIC

hehehe yayay

I LOVE IT

I lowkey want one of ur drawings now lol. I’d turn it into a sticker

ill make some for you

like i make these things where its like colors on them and one sec lemme show you

i can make you some of these.

Ooo oj

ill make some normal ones and some of those and have roman give you a folder

Okkk

youll prolly get em monday or the week after

Oo ok

i have alot of stuff to do the rest of this week but ill try for monday

It’ll be ok if you can’t

Do you have google meet on the computer or smth?

i have zoom and thats abt it

but i cant make meetig

damn

Could you get google meet? It’s super easy and u could put in my phone number but the numbers not essential

dad look

no i cant, im on a school comptuer.

they dont allow me to join meetings

i tried joining one when i had an pointment with my therpaist but it didnt work

and you cant downlod anyhting on the computer

Dang it😕

sorry luv :<

ryan rn

lilz, do you want js dresse or do you want some other clothes to? or just drawings in gneral.

It doesn’t matter just as long as its from you I’ll take it

okii

ima decorate the folder for you

whats your faveriot colors

Red and lavender

oh..

idk if i have lavender markers

You can just use purple it’s basically the same thing

ohki

any other colors?

Nope

Sorry, I’m like trying to finish this as fast as I can

what are you doing? and its oaky

An octopus

ohh cute

Yea

i had hiccuoisp

Those suck

me singing

wait thats a bad one

https://vocaroo.com/1omRI2kGkU42

Those are amazing

yayayayyayy

I love singing so much but I’m not good at it anymore

i doubt your bad at it

I’ll record it in a bit and prove how bad it is

smh

its not bad i bet

https://voca.ro/1d3nS0gS4ZsQ

It’s gonna sound really, really bad

lillian its good

fym "bad" fucking liar.

Oop

It sounds bad because my voice cracked so much

voice cracks are normal ml

https://voca.ro/1eZ4AcdsIBld

This one is way better in my opinion

they are both amazing

ive never heard that song though

It’s from hamiton

ohhhh

ive been wanting to watch that but we dont have disney

My dad just went low enough to say that I don’t love my brother because I don’t wanna watch him anymore cause I watched the whole day

what the fuvck?

Yup.

just ignore

dads can be pos sometimes

He does this to me and my mom all the time

hes a fucking manutavie shit head who dosent dserve his family.

Yup

if anyhting unsafe happens in that house you better tell me and i will take care of it.

OK, my dad’s too soft to hurt us though

thats what i thought about my dad.

okay id delete that because

what happend last time

you know im always here if you need me, whats your phone number, ill call it today after my internet goes out (at 4) so you have my number

or if youd rather email it to me, i sent you an email a few hours ago

I never got the email

My number is 989-4088- 9149

putting ur number out there is crazy work

IKR

email me

bro is using their SCHOOL email

why do you care?

just crazy work

okay but why do you care.

It didn’t work 🤨

someone's hangry

just making an observation

Ok

This one worked

oki

Mayyyyy

Erm this is kinda random and sorry for pooping out of no where but is your full name lillian .v? cuz i knew someone with the same nickname as you

no her name is not.

hiii its my birthday toady!

Happy birthday! I didn’t know :<

I watched hello kitty for the first time btw

Where’d you watch it at? I can’t find it for the life of me m

No it isn’t

Idk. My friend was watching it in class and I joined her.