The Fear of Losing Him

I love him so much. His eyes, height, personality everything. I want to be with him forever, through the bad, good, worse, ugly, everything. I want to be there. But then there’s this doubt in my mind. “What if he doesn’t love you” replaying day after day after day, it scares me I love him so much it’s so scary, knowing what I’d probably do if he left me. Because I know I’m not good enough for him. I’m taller, awkward, annoying, all things boys hate. So it confuses me why he choose me. It feels like the plot to a wicked game that I know nothing about. This pitiful, never ending feeling that he’s going to leave me for someone in his actual class, not someone older. Someone he could truly connect with, not someone who doesn’t know how to talk to him. I really don’t want that to happen, but I’m absolutely terrified it’s going to. And if it does, you’ll never hear from me again.