Anonymous2 years agoYALL i woke up like an hour late just to rmeberd im getting picked up 2 hours ealir than normal
bloodgod1 year agoShes kinda manipulating, She has a diff personality for everyone she knows so its kinda fake
bloodgod1 year agoShe hates physical contact but is always like holding my other friends hand in class
Blach66.11 year agobloodgodShe hates physical contact but is always like holding my other friends hand in classHow you ever thought she doing it for you?
bloodgod1 year agoLike even someone in our advisory noticed she didn't really act like she liked me..
bloodgod1 year agoBlach66.1Have you asked her why?No because she said if shes uncomfortable she wont talk but if I'm upset shell make me talk..
Blach66.11 year agoAccept the things you cannot change, have the courage to change the things you can, and have the wisdom to know the difference.
bloodgod1 year agoIf one more bad thing happend within a week with me and her I may need to let her go
Blach66.11 year agoI'm reading just now and then I'm not staying up to late playing games or taking online
Emo Rice
hi
Blach66.1
Yk this comes up in last commented
bloodgod
Damn..
bloodgod
We boutta fix that
Blach66.1
Ok
Blach66.1
Anyway
Blach66.1
What's wrong?
bloodgod
Serena..
bloodgod
Dont tell her anything i say
bloodgod
I am so lost
bloodgod
I am even to upset to cry..
Blach66.1
Ok
bloodgod
But i cant stop crying..
Blach66.1
What about?
bloodgod
I dont think she loves me..
Blach66.1
Don't say that
bloodgod
She dosent want me to hug her even
Blach66.1
Ik for a fact she does
bloodgod
side hugs dont count
bloodgod
No you dont understand
Blach66.1
Then make me
Blach66.1
Tell me what happened
Blach66.1
What's happening
bloodgod
Shes kinda manipulating, She has a diff personality for everyone she knows so its kinda fake
bloodgod
She hates physical contact but is always like holding my other friends hand in class
bloodgod
Still she wanted to set boundries wich I'm ok with
Blach66.1
Ok
bloodgod
But she had "im my own person" as one like I don't treat her like she is
Blach66.1
How you ever thought she doing it for you?
Blach66.1
I mean
bloodgod
I hold her hand alot
bloodgod
She just..
bloodgod
Distancing alot..
bloodgod
Like even someone in our advisory noticed she didn't really act like she liked me..
bloodgod
She had been acting diffrent.
bloodgod
I dont know if i feel the same
bloodgod
Even my bsf said shes toxic..
bloodgod
And wants to beat her up-
Blach66.1
Have you asked her why?
bloodgod
I am litterly shaking right now
bloodgod
No because she said if shes uncomfortable she wont talk but if I'm upset shell make me talk..
bloodgod
Dude i might have to break up with her
Blach66.1
Sit take your hands off your laptop or ipad and just breathe
bloodgod
I dont think im enough
bloodgod
She dosent act like she loves me
bloodgod
Half the time she acts like im a friend shes annoyed of..
bloodgod
Like i had a panic attack in class.
bloodgod
Idk how to deal with this
bloodgod
I fucking carved S+C into my hamd if we break up it'll be a scar..
bloodgod
I just..
bloodgod
I dont know if i want ym emotions anymore.
bloodgod
I dont feel like feeling.
bloodgod
I dont feel ok.
bloodgod
Its hard to talk
bloodgod
I act fucking ok
Blach66.1
Don't
Blach66.1
Let her ask you if your ok
Blach66.1
Then tell her how you feel
bloodgod
I cant
bloodgod
She will just get mad
bloodgod
She thinks and has said shes just a pawn in a game I'm playing
bloodgod
she thinks im fucking playing her
Blach66.1
Tell her you not
bloodgod
I did.
Blach66.1
Did she believe you?
bloodgod
No.
Blach66.1
Why?
bloodgod
She said she cant even fucking trust me
bloodgod
She cant even tell me how she feels
bloodgod
You have no idea how hard im trying to not take a knife and fucking end everything
bloodgod
Im lost
bloodgod
I can feel my heart breaking
bloodgod
It doesn't feel good.
Blach66.1
Charlie
Blach66.1
Yk me
bloodgod
ik
Blach66.1
You trust me, I trust you
bloodgod
Yea.
Blach66.1
Remember, this?
bloodgod
Yea.
Blach66.1
Mabye she doesn't love you
Blach66.1
Mabye she does
Blach66.1
Either way
Blach66.1
You can't end it
Blach66.1
Cuz that right there
Blach66.1
Shows how it'll affect everyone who does love you
Blach66.1
Ok?
bloodgod
Ok
bloodgod
What do i do..
Blach66.1
You be honest with her
Blach66.1
Tell her everything hing
bloodgod
Its gonna ruin everything
bloodgod
She make my entire world spin..
bloodgod
Whatever i do im going to regret it..
bloodgod
If i do nothing or something im doing something wrong..
Blach66.1
If you being honest is gonna ruin something, then it's probably already ruined
Blach66.1
Charlie
bloodgod
yea..
Blach66.1
I heard a quate one time
Blach66.1
Quate*
Blach66.1
Accept the things you cannot change, have the courage to change the things you can, and have the wisdom to know the difference.
bloodgod
But I love her..
bloodgod
Like real love.
Blach66.1
And if she doesn't love you, then you can't change it
Blach66.1
You can try
Blach66.1
And try
Blach66.1
But Charlie
bloodgod
I dont wanna let go..
Blach66.1
Why?
bloodgod
Ive never felt like this for anyone..
bloodgod
but one other person
bloodgod
And ik my brain knows i need to let go
bloodgod
Bc That one other person
bloodgod
Has been in my dreams
bloodgod
He came back.
bloodgod
To tell me to let go..
Blach66.1
Well
Blach66.1
If he came back
Blach66.1
Then it's important
bloodgod
I know..
bloodgod
Hes been gone out of my mind for a year and gone irl for like 2 years.
bloodgod
But he came into my dream.
bloodgod
I knew it meant something and i found out what it did today.
Blach66.1
Charlie?
Blach66.1
What does your heart say?
bloodgod
uhm.
bloodgod
it says ive been here to many times
bloodgod
dont make the same mistake.
bloodgod
my heart dosent want her gone..
bloodgod
but it may need her gone.
Blach66.1
Exactly
Blach66.1
Your heart is one of the weakest parts of the body
Blach66.1
Physically and mentally
Blach66.1
Your brain, your friends
bloodgod
....
Blach66.1
They all think you should just be honest
Blach66.1
Right
Blach66.1
You just said it yourself
bloodgod
Yea..
Blach66.1
So Charlie
bloodgod
Yea?
Blach66.1
Instead of asking me what to do
Blach66.1
I'm asking you
Blach66.1
What are you going to do?
bloodgod
Stay with her and suffer
Blach66.1
If that's what you think
bloodgod
hope it gets better
Blach66.1
Well if it doesn't then you can always.... correct your mistakes
bloodgod
I-
bloodgod
I need to let her go.
bloodgod
But.
bloodgod
I want to talk to some of my friends first..
bloodgod
Ask them for advice.
Blach66.1
Ok
Blach66.1
Well you've heard me
bloodgod
I couldnt live without you..
Blach66.1
But I'm just gonna tell you another quote that can hopefully help you
Blach66.1
Needs are necessity, but wants are luxury
Blach66.1
Same
bloodgod
Promise youll be there for whatever happens?
Blach66.1
Unless I get grounded but that rarely happens
bloodgod
Ok..
bloodgod
If one more bad thing happend within a week with me and her I may need to let her go
Blach66.1
Well
Blach66.1
If that's what you think
bloodgod
ok..
Blach66.1
How are you other wise?
bloodgod
Tbh idk..
Blach66.1
Well tell me when you do
bloodgod
I was writing sm today i got a blister-
Blach66.1
Ohh
bloodgod
yh..
bloodgod
Ima js go
bloodgod
Go to bed
bloodgod
U go to bed
Blach66.1
It's 5pm
Blach66.1
Why are you going to bed?
bloodgod
No i was telling u to go to bed
Blach66.1
No
bloodgod
Why
Blach66.1
I'm reading just now and then I'm not staying up to late playing games or taking online
Blach66.1
Like till 12
bloodgod
k..
bloodgod
What time is it rn for u?
bloodgod
ima js go..
bloodgod
talk to yh tmrw prolly
Blach66.1
It's 10 22