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hi

Yk this comes up in last commented

Damn..

We boutta fix that

Ok

Anyway

What's wrong?

Serena..

Dont tell her anything i say

I am so lost

I am even to upset to cry..

Ok

But i cant stop crying..

What about?

I dont think she loves me..

Don't say that

She dosent want me to hug her even

Ik for a fact she does

side hugs dont count

No you dont understand

Then make me

Tell me what happened

What's happening

Shes kinda manipulating, She has a diff personality for everyone she knows so its kinda fake

She hates physical contact but is always like holding my other friends hand in class

Still she wanted to set boundries wich I'm ok with

Ok

But she had "im my own person" as one like I don't treat her like she is

How you ever thought she doing it for you?

I mean

I hold her hand alot

She just..

Distancing alot..

Like even someone in our advisory noticed she didn't really act like she liked me..

She had been acting diffrent.

I dont know if i feel the same

Even my bsf said shes toxic..

And wants to beat her up-

Have you asked her why?

I am litterly shaking right now

No because she said if shes uncomfortable she wont talk but if I'm upset shell make me talk..

Dude i might have to break up with her

Sit take your hands off your laptop or ipad and just breathe

I dont think im enough

She dosent act like she loves me

Half the time she acts like im a friend shes annoyed of..

Like i had a panic attack in class.

Idk how to deal with this

I fucking carved S+C into my hamd if we break up it'll be a scar..

I just..

I dont know if i want ym emotions anymore.

I dont feel like feeling.

I dont feel ok.

Its hard to talk

I act fucking ok

Don't

Let her ask you if your ok

Then tell her how you feel

I cant

She will just get mad

She thinks and has said shes just a pawn in a game I'm playing

she thinks im fucking playing her

Tell her you not

I did.

Did she believe you?

No.

Why?

She said she cant even fucking trust me

She cant even tell me how she feels

You have no idea how hard im trying to not take a knife and fucking end everything

Im lost

I can feel my heart breaking

It doesn't feel good.

Charlie

Yk me

ik

You trust me, I trust you

Yea.

Remember, this?

Yea.

Mabye she doesn't love you

Mabye she does

Either way

You can't end it

Cuz that right there

Shows how it'll affect everyone who does love you

Ok?

Ok

What do i do..

You be honest with her

Tell her everything hing

Its gonna ruin everything

She make my entire world spin..

Whatever i do im going to regret it..

If i do nothing or something im doing something wrong..

If you being honest is gonna ruin something, then it's probably already ruined

Charlie

yea..

I heard a quate one time

Quate*

Accept the things you cannot change, have the courage to change the things you can, and have the wisdom to know the difference.

But I love her..

Like real love.

And if she doesn't love you, then you can't change it

You can try

And try

But Charlie

I dont wanna let go..

Why?

Ive never felt like this for anyone..

but one other person

And ik my brain knows i need to let go

Bc That one other person

Has been in my dreams

He came back.

To tell me to let go..

Well

If he came back

Then it's important

I know..

Hes been gone out of my mind for a year and gone irl for like 2 years.

But he came into my dream.

I knew it meant something and i found out what it did today.

Charlie?

What does your heart say?

uhm.

it says ive been here to many times

dont make the same mistake.

my heart dosent want her gone..

but it may need her gone.

Exactly

Your heart is one of the weakest parts of the body

Physically and mentally

Your brain, your friends

....

They all think you should just be honest

Right

You just said it yourself

Yea..

So Charlie

Yea?

Instead of asking me what to do

I'm asking you

What are you going to do?

Stay with her and suffer

If that's what you think

hope it gets better

Well if it doesn't then you can always.... correct your mistakes

I-

I need to let her go.

But.

I want to talk to some of my friends first..

Ask them for advice.

Ok

Well you've heard me

I couldnt live without you..

But I'm just gonna tell you another quote that can hopefully help you

Needs are necessity, but wants are luxury

Same

Promise youll be there for whatever happens?

Unless I get grounded but that rarely happens

Ok..

If one more bad thing happend within a week with me and her I may need to let her go

Well

If that's what you think

ok..

How are you other wise?

Tbh idk..

Well tell me when you do

I was writing sm today i got a blister-

Ohh

yh..

Ima js go

Go to bed

U go to bed

It's 5pm

Why are you going to bed?

No i was telling u to go to bed

No

Why

I'm reading just now and then I'm not staying up to late playing games or taking online

Like till 12

k..

What time is it rn for u?

ima js go..

talk to yh tmrw prolly

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