good morning

hi

hi

hi

how is your day going

pretty good hbu

good

kool

im so sleep deprived im actually hallucinating

damn

its actually scary

hai

i once saw static images like gifs (i only realized þey were not gifs when my friend i had on call told me) (it was 5 am)

oh..??

damn

do you guys just not sleep..

nah

i sleep usually

its 4am for me rn

maybe you should sleep..!

how boring

boii

guys how do i confront my bf to stop being overly affectionate in public guelp 💔

hm

js tell him youd rather be less affectionate in public and then tell him the kinda pda youd be okay with

like i feel that girl im not a huge pda person it feels awkward

bro ive been dropping hints i was getting awkward with it

id js be direct about it

i'll try heh..

js be like hey i love you i love affection but not so much in public, but im okay with you doing a b and c while we're out

and if hes a good guy he'll respect that

i just feel bad cause even like online, he be sayin all this lovey dovey stuff and like its a public chat w friends and im like slowly crying inside cause holy cornball please keep it in the dms boi 💔

gulps

yup i feel that bro

AND RN WE ARE KINDA LIKE

distanced cause of schoolwork

and we already established that issue and we're like tryna get through it and i feel like me mentioning this rn is gonna say other things

ohhh damn

cause he overthinks too..!

id js make it clear that you really care about him still its js awkward sometimes

oh!

like the other day i changed my pfp on pinterest to this one i have on rn and he went

"oh is that another guy? whys it another guy? thats just weird haha.." STPO ITS JUST A PFP I PROMISW

hm

i promise all i do is reassure him on things but it gets tuah point

bro sounds like

eh

sounds like my ex ngl

like then he offered to match pfps on pinterest! like no.. i use pinterest as a business account to get views.. i dont wanna match.. we match everywhere else already..!

hi

hai apollo

what’s happing

ohh damn

and when i told him no

he went

he went all emo

"oh.. okay.. yeah."

oh??

like okay

i mean idk the guy but it sounds like hes not secure or mature enough to be in a relationship

stop that makes him a hypocrite

mal i think i made parker upset

oh what happened

damn

i kinda explained eerything thats been going on and he feels bad cause hes the reason im alive

what

like, that sounds bad, but i bascially explained that everything would be eaiser if i was dead

and

he feels bad

but i shoudnt have said that

cause its fucked up

and now hes upset

oh damn

maybe apologize..? i dunno

yeah thats too much pressure to put on someone

im sorry but like thats sm pressure

exactly

i know

but i wasnt tryitn to

i was trying to explain that

hes made my life better

charlie you cant have a person be the only reason youre alive

yeah..

i know

it creates an extremely unhealthy attachment

someone did that to me

and its even worse to let the person know that

i wasnt trying to

i just wanted to tell him he made my life better

and thats sweet but you have to be extremely careful how you word stuff like that, especially with someone who cares a whole fucking lot about others (parker)

yeah he really dose

im trying to tell him i dont wanna kms

so how exactly did you word that

i told him

"i dont want to kill myself"

and now imt elling him all the reasons i wanna live

and then thats how it led up to telling him he was a reason?

no im telling him this all right now

i was going on a rant when i told him that

oouhh i see

i feel so bad

i hate being stupid

youre not stupid

its js a mistake

it happens to everyone

i know

so im giving him a lot of reasons fo rme to live

and telling him one time how one oft hem littrealy saved me

okok

im trying to fix it

thats good

i feel bad

its ok

hes back to normal and ok

cause hes

calling me short

and said nuh uh

lmao

hey hru yall

hi im good hbu

i should prolly leave, i was told i had to take break

thank you mal

bye

cya

oki doki bye

one more thing

mal

yea

good, I'm thinkin of buying a posty merch hoodie, but its expensive

nice

i know one day you are going to chage the world, in a good way. becasue your amazing, and honestly the best person i know. i love you so much also.

merch is crazy expensive i want a hoodie for a band i like (idk which band) but they all sooooo damn expensive

aw thats rlly sweet tyy ilyt

well I find a hoodie that's only 90$ which isn't too bad for merch

ima get you it for christmas.

aww that's nice

ohhh yeah thats pretty good

i like lookin on etsy for that stuff cus they have sales

like fr, every christmas i get a 200$ gift card, ill find a way to dm you the info on it so you can buy one, js lmk what you want, ill give you the card info. js please only buy smthin

woooooo

nonono thats okkkk you can keep your mojey

money

I don't trust stuff from Etsy, from fear of being scammed

ohh true

i have a buncha band ts from etsy and i love them

mal i get like 20$ each weeek when im not grounded.

and rn im ungrounded

but like i have a jobbbbb

I'm willing to pay prices if its what I want, I'm pretty flexible

but its chrismas

where

i wanna buy you a christmas resent

i work at a childcare place

you dont have to thooooooo its okkkk

and hoodies are expensive

im going to, even if i have to hack into your shit and find your adress, or js make my life eaiser, take the info, and buy smthin. it can be smthin small too.

fine ill get smth small

YAY

lmao tyty

nice, ima try an work at mc Donald's or Starbucks next year

okay now fr i gtg, ill ttyl next week, find whatchu want , you can change it if you see smthin else

buyebyee

cyaaa

ohhh tight

i worked at one childcare place for 3 years and then the owners sold it to a bigger childcare thing so now i work there

same building different company

I'm saving up for a few things

dang

im saving up for college 😭

graduating high school this year

gonna needa place to stay, books, and gas money

real, that's so smart and mature of u, Im js not sure I'ma go to college or not

but my dads convinced ill get outta college debt free cus the circumstances are all kinda js lined up for me

thts totally fair

i rlly needa save up cus like ofc theres only sm my parents can pay for

yeah, I get that college is very expensive

and u can drown in debt

yup

but if i go to a state college then the state will pay my tuition

so i only hafta worry about housing and books and stuff like that

and then i can use the money my parents have set aside for me for smth else like a car

cus i rlly need a new car

i have a pass to be here for this topic. How? is it cause good grades. also whats a tuition?

don't think I'ma get a car til I'ma like 19

how is because i was in the foster system when i was younger, and tuition is the money to go to college

i have a lil honda from like 2007 which was fantastic until some idiot hit me cus they were speeding

awh darn

i wanna get my shit payd for

so, do you know how scholarships work, or is this a converstaion i need to have with my school counslaer

wdym

like how do you get them?

yeah

and how they work

like

dose it only apply to certain collages

do you need to be in honnor classes

you research them online, find ones you may be eligible for, and you apply for them

it depends on the scholarship, some are college specific and others arent

nope

and dose it look at all your highschool grades? cause my grades are good, im just behind. i need to catch up i started late, and yknow.. been sidetracked.

cause im in 9th grade.

a lot of them do

okay.

so what would they do if i had to retake 9th grade, but got all A''s and shit

cause i might have to

yeah specifically like academic scholarships

I'm just unsure what I want to do with my life, and feel like I'ma get all jumbled up getting started in finding my path in life

im not entirely sure

thats fair, id say if youre unsure if you want to go to college id do some dual enrollment classes at a community college if thats like possible for you

cus its cheap and can give you a feel of what its like so you can better make a decision

and id tour colleges anyway even tho you dont know if you wanna go cus once again can help you make a decision

do you think, so lets say, i ahev lower grades right now, the school eyar isnt over. If i end with all A's and the next years of clalge keep all A's and maybe B's, what are the chances of them taking me. Cause i cant erase what ive already done?

im honestly not entirely sure, i think if your grades are rlly good theres a chance to get an academic scholarship

the best you can do is just apply for them cus worst case they js say no

thats sture

like theres no reason not to try anyway

yeah I' might try that that eventually, tht helps a little ,thanks

i just dont wanna pay for most of my collage

what other kind of scalorhships are there

yeah u js gotta keep tryna till something works for u

yeah ofc, i js recently toured the college id been wanting to go to for years and completely changed my mind about it and im now looking at one a few states over

that's good

there's merit based ones (like academic, talent, leadership, creativity), ones for ppl who are in need financially, theres some that support certain backgrounds/ethnicities, ones for specific fields of study, community involvement ones, and then some random lil ones

so can i get one based off like, doing extra stuff?

like

art calsses, and community work?

yeah

ooh fr

so what if i get rlly good grades.

and

what if i do community work in collage

and like take extra classes outside of school

for random shit?

also sorry for the late reply, im talking on sw

then youd probably get smth out of it

okayayaya

thank you

my pass time is over

yee

vye

byee

hallooo

oop

bad time

baii mal

lmao